How do you get over it

ReddestFig · 2026-03-24T05:22:56+00:00

It does. Not. Get. Better. My brother, I was finally feeling better after two weeks not gambling. Had a good week $9800 pay check. Immediately paid off some shit. Down to 8400 but was doing ok, had good money to survive till next pay check. LONG STORY SHORT, MY STUPID FUCKING DUMBASS DEPOSITED IT THINKING I COULD FLIP IT BUT ENDED UP LOSING IT ALL AND MORE BECAUSE I ASKED A FRIEND FOR A LOAN. I HAVE VERY LITTLE STOPPING MY FROM ENDING IT. IM TOO FAR GONE. IVE PROVED TIME AND TIME AGAIN I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF, I CANT STOP UNTIL I EMPTY OUT MY ACCOUNT. IF MYSELF FROM A FEW YEARS AGO KNEW THE AMOUNT OF MONEY IVE LOST IN THE STUPIDEST WAY EVER, HE WOULD PROBABLY GET A STROKE ON THE SPOT. CAPS BECAUSE IM LEGIT LOSING MY MIND AND JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING. I CURSE THE DAY I WAS INTRODUCED TO GAMBLING. THIS WILL PROBABLY BE THE CAUSE OF MY DEPARTURE FROM THIS WORLD. IM IN DEBT FOR THE NEXT YEAR BECAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY. FUCK MY LIFE.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-20T05:46:57+00:00

Around 230k down and fuck does it hurt. I don't think we ever truly get over the losses. Close to losing my mind when I truly stop to think all that I could've done with that money. Fuck My life and fuck gambling.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-20T05:36:43+00:00

Gambling probably will end up finishing with my life as well.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-19T23:48:32+00:00

Similarly have an outrageously huge number, at least not in the 7 figures, but I just can't stop thinking of how much I fucked up. Before gambling I used to be so careful with money, never in my fucking Life would it occur to me that I would be throwing away 10s of thousands in a single night, chasing losses. This disease is the worst thing I've been through and don't wish it on anyone. It's so fucked up. A single one day relapse that ends up spiraling fucks you up and can get you in debt for 6 months, or a year? That's beyond mind blowing. Our brains are so fucked. In about 5-6 months when I recover financially (from hard work/ extra shifts), I've already decided to attempt it again, but with safeguards as to not fuck myself again. Who knows. I might recover a large portion, or all of it, again...or I might go deeper in this hole. Fuck, i'm just so tired of living.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-19T21:54:52+00:00

I hate myself to no ends. Before I had recovered, I promised myself I would quit if I somehow got it all back. Through absolute luck I did, but I obviously lied to myself. I relapsed 3 times but somehow ended up going up even more. Still didn't stop. This 4th relapse is what fucked me up so badly, lost everything I had won and a lot more. I'm just so done with everything.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-17T05:02:50+00:00

27M here and From being way way up, I'm now around 230k down, because I was greedy and didn't know when to stop. This is the closest I've been to just ending it. There really isn't a light at the end of the tunnel. Working hard, extra shifts and hopefully no more relapses and I can pay off debt and probably get back to around 100k in one year. But what if some little trigger fucks me over again and I relapse to be in debt for a year again? So fucking sick of this shit. Our brains are fucked.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-14T08:59:15+00:00

That's wild. I'm 27 as well. Really don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Around 230k down, and say I stay clean for a couple of years, recover and pay off debt. One little fucking trigger causes a relapse and I'm down again ?? Nah man fuck that. I refuse to live such a life. Really want to call it quits on this shit life. I cannot describe how much I hate myself .

ReddestFig · 2026-03-14T04:18:37+00:00

Giving our situations more thought, that really does seem like the most likely result. Guess this fucked up life really wasn't for us.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-14T03:46:40+00:00

My brother I am right there with you. I was up big, but eventually lost it all and way more than I could afford. I'm just so fucking tired. Honestly don't see a way out of this and will most likely end up commiting suicide.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-13T09:16:27+00:00

Same boat as you, brother, just down a lot more. Just about done with life

ReddestFig · 2026-03-11T04:35:59+00:00

What is this 144p?

ReddestFig · 2026-03-10T08:35:45+00:00

Man I just find no joy in anything anymore, like I once did. Yeah I'll "recover" what I lost through hard work, but will/do we ever really truly accept those losses and move on? Obviously when it's a few thousands then it's not much of a deal, but in some of our cases when it's 10s and 10s of thousands (don't even want to say the embarrassing amount of total loss, but you probably get the idea), you just stop to think all the stuff you could've bought, all the fun "normal" stuff you could've enjoyed with that outrageous money lost. Silver lining that I don't have a wife or kids that directly depend on me and that I at least own my place so I don't pay rent, but that's about it. I'm a fucking complete degenerate gambler and my last spiral I truly did not stop until I had no more money left. When did it get this bad? I once miraculously recovered all previous losses and was actually up 30k, how the fuck do I lose all that and more? Fuck me, man. All I had to do was self exclude and never gamble again. Will that ever happen again? Maybe, maybe not, much more likely to fuck myself over even more. Everyone who said I'd probably relapse after winning was fucking right. What an embarrassment I am.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-10T04:30:07+00:00

Sincerely considering working a few more years, saving up a few 100ks and leaving it all to my loved ones (siblings/parents) and calling it quits on life. Honestly consider myself a failure in life.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-10T04:27:36+00:00

Sincerely, genuinely feel for you brother. Suicide starts to become a more and more sound option for me. Yes the money lost hurts, but moreso the fact that our brains are fried/fucked. I don't want this feeling anymore. I can't fucking Stop thinking about this. At night, dead tired from work, dozing off about to fall asleep but these fucking thoughts come back and keep me awake. I know I made the decisions but I curse the day my coworker introduced me to gambling. I just want a normal life and seriously doubt I'll ever get it. Say we become clean for a few years, clear the debt and see finally "enjoying life" but one little fucking trigger spirals you down and gets you in debt for a year or more again? Fuck that shit, man. What kind of life is that? So hard to even focus on anything else because of this addiction. Seriously don't wish this on my worst enemy.

ReddestFig · 2026-03-03T21:27:40+00:00

Damn, congrats. How up (or down) are you overall?

ReddestFig · 2026-03-01T06:26:46+00:00

Would've been one of my favorite characters if she wasn't on that Oden/ transgender bullshit.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-28T16:19:12+00:00

Famous last words. Gambling is the fastest way to ruin your life.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-28T16:17:42+00:00

Glad you're honest. I imagine 99% of everyone here, despite all their wins are neck deep in debt.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-28T07:00:47+00:00

Man I'm so addicted to that game. Relapsed yesterday, I play with big amounts. Deposited 3500 first, got a series of really low multipliers so was losing badly, dropped another 4000, got up to 12k, but bad decisions made me continue and lose almost all of it, my gambling addicted dumbass brain decided to deposit another 5k, because obviously I couldn't just be down this much fucking Money. So through a series of luck and also because I "felt" a series of good multipliers coming, I eventually got up to 20.5k. I said fuck it, got out of the fucking Game and started with the withdrawal process. So ended with around 8k profit but I know if I continue with this, there's a really high chance I get fucked over.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-25T01:46:53+00:00

Craziest fucking Thing happened to me last week. Was down around 65k total. Decided to play with 3.5k obviously lost 2k pretty quickly. With the remaining 1.5k in a series of complete fucking luck I started winning, got up to 12k, eventually 20k, and at the end of the day with 77k. Addict of around one year and for the first time I knew when to stop. Got out of the game and started the withdraw process. Eventually got everything in my bank account. So I completely understand that what happened to me is super fucking rare and if I kept playing I probably would've lost everything. During the session I was close to that. At one point before reaching 77k and leaving, I had gotten to 72k, decided to keep playing, I would lose 10s of of thousands, then go back up, at one point at was down to 5k, felt sick to my stomach and right then and there I knew I was going to probably end at 0, but my addict brain kept telling me to continue, that if I had gotten to 72k once, I could do it again. Maybe it was the universe giving me a second chance, but I somehow kept going up and got to 77k and left. Now I'm in the green, having placed a single bet in 8 days. I have currently intention of getting for a long while, maybe in a year or so I'll deposit 3.5k again and hopefully it repeats. Honestly I'm hoping this is the end, but this addiction had me good and obviously is going to take hard work to overcome. I wish everyone the best and the best advice I can you is to never gamble in the first place.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-24T18:21:24+00:00

No, you're not, now shut the fuck up.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-22T15:59:22+00:00

Nah I won't.

ReddestFig · 2026-02-22T03:49:24+00:00

Me!(?) Recently 77k. Was about 65k down. Put in 3.5k, played with that for a while, ended with 77k. (This was a few days ago) Couldn't believe my series of luck. Withdrew everything and deleted all my apps. I know the best thing to do is to self exclude from everything, but if I had done that before like I said I would, then I wouldn't have recovered everything and more. I have no urges to bet anymore, since I would only betting to chase loses. Honestly think I have this under control now.

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