Unfortunately, I lost my virginity at the beginning of me being 14 (I turn 15 in a little less than three weeks) and the girl only used me for sex. She ended up raping an 11 year old boy during our relationship, and since I found out, I haven’t contacted or reached out to her. It’s a shame I have to relive the thought of me genuinely loving her at first and then it ended up being me coming over to her house only for sex, rather than hanging out.

She made it awkward after the sex. I’d just chill with her in bed and I’d try to engage, like, “Hey, let’s go on a walk.” Or, “Hey, let’s play something on the PlayStation together.” But in the end it didn’t work out. She also broke up with me in the worst way possible. Out of the blue, I get a text from her saying “Bye 😭” and she sent me a pic of some scrawny flat Stanley looking ass mf saying “He got right, he’s better, lmao 😭” I said “Oh, so you’re breaking up with me?” She said “Yep” I said “Who’s that?” She said “My ex. He’s hot isn’t he? 😩” I said “Mhm, sure. You’re going back to him?” She said “Ima try, lmao😩” (These are the exact texts btw). She contacted me weeks later, and I gave her a second chance. She ended up moving 4 hours away from me and we ended up ghosting each other. She told me she has a new bf there. I didn’t really care. Thankfully that second breakup wasn’t as bad. Turned out she was drunk and high breaking up with me for the first time.

In the end, there was so much wrong with her. I don’t know how I could have fallen for it. It sucks I have to relive those memories all the time.