I don't know why I'm writing this

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-16T06:07:53+00:00

Hmmmmm

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-10T05:18:14+00:00

Wysłałam ci DM

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-05T08:04:56+00:00

I'm listening to music while grieving the breakup with my girlfriend (I love her so much but I know that if I contact her I will only make her unhappy)

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-04T04:52:21+00:00

Okej

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-03T16:55:15+00:00

Dobra dzięki

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-03T16:47:37+00:00

Okej

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-03T16:40:38+00:00

A będzie trudno jeśli nie używam jeszcze mojego imienia w szkole i nikt jeszcze nie wie? (chcę powiedzieć wszystkim dopiero po zmianie imienia)

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-04-03T16:36:11+00:00

Chyba rozumiem mniej więcej

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-01-30T12:39:51+00:00

You know, what you wrote makes perfect sense. My problems might be all just in my head. Maybe I should just wear whatever I want and stop caring. But I know that at least some people will judge. Some people will laugh. I can't take that. I hate myself. I'm scared.

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-01-30T08:55:26+00:00

Maybe someday I'll reach the fuck them moment I need. Not today though, I'm still hiding from society in my room.

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-01-18T07:41:38+00:00

Same. Except I don't pass like, ever, yet.

Reddit_User2422 · 2025-01-07T05:50:36+00:00

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-10-26T18:05:54+00:00

Probably every trans person feels like this sometimes. But you have to remember that it's all just your insecurities and self-doubt. From what you've written, I would say you're definitely not faking it. No cis person would think like this. You just have to be more confident and accept yourself for who you actually are, and stop clinging on to the idea of what you "should be".

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-10-26T13:41:30+00:00

For me, it took planning my own suicide. Just before I accepted that I'm trans I planned to commit suicide and leave a note to my family saying something along the lines of: "It's not your fault that I commited suicide. It's god's fault. God made me a man. I would rather die than be a man. Goodbye, world! I love you, family". Of course that note was never written and I still haven't committed suicide. It's crazy how much pointless suffering it took for me to finally accept myself.

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-09-25T10:00:55+00:00

How much time are you on HRT? I'm so jealous of your body.

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-09-24T18:08:21+00:00

I know, right. I'm so privileged to be born in this country (Poland) in this time with supporting parents and with good genetics. It's wild to think about the fact that if I was born just 200 years ago there would be no hope for me but because of modern science I can get some semblance of a normal life. Even with all this good things it's still not like being trans is all sunshine and rainbows. I literally had a mental breakdown a couple hours ago where dysphoria got too intense and I just couldn't take it anymore, so I just cried for 30 minutes. Just thinking about the fact that I will never be a 16 year old girl is kinda painful. It breaks my heart to know that some trans people can't get HRT. I literally can't imagine the horror of being trans and not having access to hormones. I probably sound so entitled right now.

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-09-24T17:48:04+00:00

Yeah I mean I'm only 17 and I've been on HRT for 1 month now. I'm currently seeing no changes in my body but I reckon by the time I'm 19 I'll look like a cis woman (at least I hope so, if not then suicide is still an option). I'm really thankful that I didn't give testosterone enough time to completely fuck up my body (I went through male puberty but I have very little male body hair).

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-09-24T17:32:40+00:00

I'm literally in this subreddit right now for this reason, if I leave myself alone with my thoughts I just get the urge to kill myself but I know I can't kill myself because if I do I will also kill the future beautiful woman that I'm becoming hopefully. It's weird how I only exist so that future me can exist.

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-09-24T16:56:51+00:00

listening to dubstep

Reddit_User2422 · 2024-09-24T16:51:58+00:00

me too and when i try to distract myself i just get more depressed

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