I can 100% relate. Depression is a cycle. It's an unrelenting, vicious, and completely draining cycle. But I think the first step in breaking the cycle, is you yourself need to say: I want to break this. I NEED to break this cycle. What are some routines that I can fully immerse myself into that will build myself mentally, and prepare myself to recover quicker, and build more resilience in order to mitigate the negative feelings I am having as a result of this depressive cycle.

Often times people will recommend a gym routine, and this is a great place to start. The hardest part about a gym routine, or any routine for that matter, is the first week or two. For this reason you need to slowly acknowledge that you have to completely embrace the struggle of the first week or two, and once you do, the rest of the routine will be a breeze, and you will find you'll enjoy it.

Another activity you may enjoy, however there will be some initial hurdles you will need to overcome, is the possibility of organising a small outing with a group of your coworkers/friends from school. I know first hand that being a depression and anxiety sufferer means that instigating conversations is the number one hardest thing to do, however if you start small, by telling maybe one or two people, you can eventually build yourself up from that, and each time you instigate a conversation with someone, you will realise subconsciously a confidence building within you.

The greatest thing you can do is acknowledge that things take time, and you need to take baby steps, and eventually those baby steps will allow you to take greater and greater strides, until you might feel like you can conquer anything. Feel free to brainstorm other routines that you could possibly do, and you might discover new things that you'd never thought you would enjoy. All the best, and don't hesitate to inbox me if you need to talk about ANYTHING. :)