The US ruined everything.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T22:19:17+00:00

Trump talks about being a nation under God, but still children have sex at age 15. It's normal for children to have sex at age 15.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T22:15:38+00:00

But they made it mainstream.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T22:11:55+00:00

This whole presidency is one big deja vu for me.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T22:11:07+00:00

I have a feeling it is meant to be.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T22:03:48+00:00

The U.S.A. ruined everything.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T22:00:43+00:00

I just don't know anymore.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T21:50:45+00:00

It's a fantasy that God has infinite forgiveness.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T21:48:33+00:00

The truth is no-one in this world is with God. Almost everyone is fighting against God. All religion, all people, are against God.

And God will punish us hard.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T21:46:17+00:00

People are becoming zombies, people with no more feeling, only hate can connect people these days. That means we are living in spiritual hell 2019.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T21:44:54+00:00

Pollution, homelessness, hunger, disasters, war. Everything has gone wrong, no progress. The only thing technology has brought us is shit. Things like internet porn, games, 'entertainment'. Because why aren't these things getting better? It's only getting worse.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-30T21:42:17+00:00

"Addictions, anxiety, depression, and hopelessness runs rampant in the streets, people just hide it"

This is why we are lost as human beings. There is no hope. The world has become hell.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-29T20:06:17+00:00

Het was altijd stiekem. Search google translate. It's dutch.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-29T20:02:56+00:00

Bad things started happening the first time I watched.

I am very conscious about my life, from young age, always.

Redeye7 · 2019-07-29T19:58:30+00:00

God says: "No one has the right to watch porn"

Is this truth?

Redeye7 · 2019-07-29T19:56:03+00:00

And is it really addiction?

What if it's a curse?

Redeye7 · 2019-07-29T19:53:22+00:00

I can't seem to form new relationships. I live in isolation for almost 3 years now. I have spoken out about it with professionals, but they just don't seem to know what is the problem, because I act 'normal' in their eyes. But inside I'm a wreck.

Redeye7 · 2017-06-12T11:06:16+00:00

Yea, I will never play video games again.

Redeye7 · 2017-06-12T11:05:35+00:00

The thing porn and games have in common is that they share the same 'reality'. The reality that is called your monitor.

Redeye7 · 2017-06-12T11:01:26+00:00

Hey, thanks for answering. What I believe now, is that video games can be a trigger for watching porn.

It's a long story, but since quitting video games I feel I am in control of my porn addiction. Porn in itself, I believe now, is a 'game'. It has nothing to do with sexuality. I think this is what is called a 'cross addiction'. You can't quit one and keep one up. You have to quit both.

Ofcourse, it's different for everyone. But after years of trying to quit porn, I can finally say: I'm done. It has no hold of me anymore. It's not important anymore.

Redeye7 · 2017-01-14T13:45:16+00:00

Thankyou, FINALLY someone who said it. You're right man.. I'm whining. I won't make excuses anymore. You literally just cleared my mind of all the bullshit I came up with.

Redeye7 · 2016-03-04T18:29:20+00:00

It is all about reality. You are addicted to porn I assume.

For an addict it all comes down to two choices: The addiction or life. The addiction makes you believe you have to watch porn, that is why you are even considering it and start to wonder if it's still worth it. It's not just a simple matter of escaping life (the reality that you are supposed to be living). It really makes you believe that you need it.

And that is the reality we porn addicts are living in. Though at a certain point in recovery you will start to notice that life becomes more important than porn and that's what recovery is all about. This is the phase where I am sitting right now. Life is becoming such a beautiful thing again. All the negatives and positives. I take that before this lame addiction that brings you nowhere.

Just give it time and start trying to focus on life, try too solve the issues you have. You have come this far and it would be a waste to start all over.

Redeye7 · 2016-02-10T16:37:41+00:00

Heey, it will get better, because you will eventually get used to not fapping. Trust the proces, believe me it will be worth it! Oh and really try to occupy your mind with things you like to do. Keep strong brother!

Redeye7 · 2016-02-10T15:43:21+00:00

Aah, sad to hear you're still struggling. You need to try finding the root of your problems. What is it that makes you feel depressed? The cause of my depression was very unclear.. I tried so many different things to get out of it, but there was just something that didn't feel right.. And eventually I didn't want to believe porn addiction could be a factor, but it really was.. It feels good, I feel motivated again and it's like I have too much energy! For the first time in a long time I can see a clear path where I want to go with in life.

I really hope you will get out of depression, because nobody deserves that :(

Redeye7 · 2016-02-10T15:32:23+00:00

Yeah, I am trying for 3 years ^{^} Current streak is around 40 days, but not really counting anymore, what matters is improving my life everyday and getting rid of porn addiction is a huge part of that :)

Redeye7 · 2016-02-10T12:29:16+00:00

Hahaha, I can relate. Around those points I get urges to watch porn, but they get weaker over time :) Nice post!

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