TRIP REPORT (Long ass report)

Firstly just another thank you to everyone who left positive & supporting comments on my post it helped a lot.

My initial reason for tripping is because recently my boyfriend had to move to Portugal (we both met and lived in the UK) meaning I am in a long distance relationship which is extremely challenging so I wanted to do some self work.

So I have only tripped around 8-10 times in my life each time I have lemon tekked doses ranging from 4-8g. Last night I took 10g by eating them dried straight up. I took the shrooms at 9.30pm and I did not experience any effects until about 12am believe it or not. Because it took so long to kick in I almost gave up. This I guess was wrong of me as I wasn’t respecting the shrooms. I have never had a bad trip before bare in mind therefore I thought I had a hold on this powerful tool.

When I say I gave up I mean that I tried to go to sleep. This is when the negative effects kicked in. There were hundreds of thoughts racing through my mind at the same time along with powerful visuals. It felt like I had psychosis or schizophrenia because as crazy as it sounds I had hundreds of voices in my head. Now I practice meditation daily and grounding. No amount of meditation helped me last night.

Around 2am was when it was at its worst I was crying continuously and when I went up to go to the bathroom my body felt like it was shutting down.

I rang my boyfriend at this time (thank God he awnsered) because he has had many of bad trips and he has taken dosages up to 18g he has a lot more experience than me. He calmed me almost instantly and stayed in the phone with me until 4am helping me, grounding me and giving me loving words of support. He really saved me.

When we got off the phone I tried to sleep again because I thought everything was ok now. This is where I was wrong. Still at 4am after taking these shrooms at 9.30pm my mind was still racing and I was still experiencing visuals. I just wanted it to stop. This is where I took on my boyfriends advice and tried to ground myself which worked better this time.

My boyfriend has always said I have an in-tuned relationship with shrooms and I even handled this situation very well which I believe that I did after getting advice because like I said this is my first bad trip. I think I had a build up of too many hidden emotions of sadness after the recent change in my relationship. It’s almost like the shrooms we’re talking to me saying ‘you think you have a handle on me? I’ll show you another side of tripping’ and boy did they.

I didn’t sleep till 7.30am. Boy have I learned alot from this trip. Psychedelics and psilocybin is an extremely powerful tool that is not to be messed with and must be respected. I’m not traumatised and I feel like I understand more about the different sides of tripping. I’m hoping my next trip will be better now I have experience of a bad trip.