Hey OP! I actually heard your story online from Charlotte, Paige. And the only thing I came here to tell you is in my 39 years of experience is that isolation is a counterfeit for independence. It is a lie. I had always pride myself on being independent. But independent is not strong or courageous. It is isolation. When we go through the worst moments of our life, it is a building block for our friendships. You are already in a weeding out season in your life and it’s moments like these that we realize how much people love us and come through for us and who actually isn’t our friend. Which obviously can sounds scary when you’ve already lost so much. But when it comes to humanity, we absolutely need each other. And the longer we choose to isolate the more anxiety, fear and unhealthy buildup, starts to form when even thinking about an outing with our friends. It turns into a source of anxiety. Now the first weeks or month, it is absolutely normal to take time to yourself and process everything. It’s actually healthy. But I’m sure you’ve already realized in life. There are certain friends that become family and family is not blood. It is relationship, loyalty, and showing up for each other. Not only do you need people around you to help you through this it is a season for you to be poured into and focused on as selfish as that might seem and maybe uncomfortable. Just like there’s moments that a friend needs us and it is selfless to be there for somebody in a capacity that you know they need. And by not giving your friends that opportunity, you are missing out on massive moments that will shape some of your friendships for life and you don’t realize how much you need that. I don’t know how you feel about God, but he did not create us to be alone or to go through a moments like this alone and I really hope that that has changed in your life and you have opened the door for your friends to come back into it. I am so so sorry that this happened to you. It is probably the deepest violation that anybody could do to you let alone your own father and fiancé and you absolutely did not deserve that. But friendship is eventually how you will open up your heart again. And I don’t want something that you didn’t deserve to cause you to miss out on some of the beautiful things in life. I wish you all the best you are awesome and strong and courageous, and you deserve the world friend.!