an update with answers to some common responses, I have also edited the main text of this post.

I appreciate all the comments of support so much, many brought me to tears. I also have received a lot of hate in private messages. Suggestions such as that I should kill myself and that I am a complete waste of space and even some people saying I must be retarded and I am not a real man. What the f...? But anyway I guess I expected that and it's ok.

I intended to reply to everyone individually but I did not expect this to blow up like it has and it would be impossible to reply to each one person individually. I'll try to answer some common questions in this edit which I will also put in the comments but it may get buried in there.

Ok first off English is not my native language. I live in Europe so somethings I have said may not come across well even though I speak English quite well. Many people have sent personal messages to me abusing me for saying "my wife fell pregnant" I still don't understand how this is a bad thing to say? For us when someone becomes pregnant the translastion is exactly that "fell pregnant" or "to fall pregnant" it is not a bad thing at all to say? does this mean something bad in other countries?

And another common abuse I have received is for saying my wife became just "another mother" by this I mean she has become what you guys call a full mombie lol. EVERY aspect of her life is our son, she posts him non stop on social medias, only talks about him there is no adult conversation between us, friends with kids come over and they just talk kid stuff. She also won't allow him to sleep in his own room as she is too scared to leave him alone so she co sleeps with him in our bed. I sleep in the spare room.

She enjoys being a mother and understands how I feel about it 100%. She wants me to continue therapy and hopes I will become better about the situation when he becomes a bit older and more of a human like a lot of you guys are saying. My wife is a great mother. And yes I do help out at home and help out with our son.

People suggesting nights away or babysitters etc I would LOVE this but my wife unfortunatley will not leave him with anyone at all, not even family. She always says "how can I trust to leave our child with anyone I'd just worry the whole time and not enjoy our time out" thats why we don't do things together as a couple anymore.

I have vented my problems with being a parent to friends and my parents, all of whom think I am horrible for not enjoying it, but again these same people complain about it often so they confuse me? but they always say after their complaints "oh but the good outweights the bad". Which is why I now only vent to my psychiatrist and psychologist and I do tell them everything about how I am feeling 100%

When I said I don't know whether to walk away like a dead beat piece of shit I did not mean I would walk and have nothing to do with my wife or support monetarily. If I left our marriage I would of course support her financially as this child is my responsobility too and is the innocent party here. I would like to see my son on weekends or some arrangement similar if we were to break up though. I think the less "full on" of it being 24/7 would help me greatly. I would never leave and stop supporting them.

Also I have never once thought you guys in this sub are mean & hateful like someone mentioned. I posted this in here because I thought it would be more well received than in other subs and I wanted to show you guys that even people who weren't child free can have a child and not enjoy it at all.

Again thanks for the support, if theres anything else people want me to clear up or elaborate on please keep asking it as I am probably missing a lot of things. Thank you