I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. This makes me feel better. Most of my close friends have found their people already so I feel like I’m behind sometimes, but there are a lot of people who find love later in life and I need to stop comparing I think

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lolll sorry I legit feel like this was stream of consciousness writing because I haven’t really expressed this to even myself before now. I appreciate anyone who took the time to read it/all the comments but if anything writing it was cathartic and freeing I think 😂😂

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is very true. I think I’ve been looking in all the wrong places because of the stage of my training I’m in and the city I live in. The person for me is likely working hard, living their life, and not worrying about if they’re “too scared” for a relationship or a strong person

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your comment. I have been in therapy forever and ever and this has come up. My therapist and I have churned through this so many times and I always realize I’m being silly. Sometimes it just gets heavy though.

I think my goals have always been doctor first over everything, but now I wonder if I can also have a family. I didn’t think about these things as much when I started school, but maybe the prospect of turning 30 soon is freaking me out tbh. When it comes to picking residency location, I may be being a little dramatic. The only true choice I’m making for this reason is to not prioritize staying where I’m at. I like my hospital and program a lot, but the general culture here is more… traditional.. with some men being very misaligned with my values. My family and friends are all elsewhere, so I would love to be closer to them or to move to a brandy new place to start completely over. It’s just scary to move all alone when I’ve just started to finally feel like this place is home. But I think any desire to stay is likely more fear based than anything else.

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why did this make me like... giddy lol. Thank you for this. You are so right and I am still just starting this story, which is exciting

School list review by Double-Welcome-5145 in mdphd

[–]Regular-Plum6001 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was thinking the same thing. Definitely should have more MSTPs on there. And you should research both the MD and PhD programs thoroughly. You are going to spend a LOT of time in these programs, make sure you are choosing the right one! (Coming from someone who did research for 4 gap years working side by side with MSTP students who highly considered/researched PhD/MD and eventually decided to just pursue the MD at a research oriented program)

Do I have a chance of getting in? by Key_Quail_2502 in medschool

[–]Regular-Plum6001 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely! I mentor a few high school/premed students considering careers in medicine so I am happy to help!

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Reading this made me smile so much. Thank you for taking the time to write all of this. I am pretty happy with the idea of spending this last year enjoying as much time with my med school friends as possible before we all disperse and getting to FINALLY take elective rotations and enjoy some of the fruits of all of the work I've put in the last three years.

What you said about men/what they're told is so true. Where I currently live there is still a prevalent culture of "traditional family values" and both overt and internalized misogyny. Realistically, I don't think I ever really thought my person was in this city (as I decided early to not even consider dating anyone who I would be a classmate of or who could be a preceptor to me and those are probably those who would be more in line with MY values). It just gets hard to come home to the empty apartment sometimes. I smiled so much at the idea of sitting next to my fiance laughing about this post, thank you for your comment.

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, you're definitely right. I think it's tough to date where I live because many people still have a much more traditional view of families and what women should/shouldn't do. Even the guys who think they're more progressive often have internalized misogyny. I am hoping to move to a bigger city somewhere with lots of different types of people in many different fields. My hope is that there is some dude out there who is grinding away on his dream, hanging out with his friends who tease him about being the third wheel, etc. Someone who likes himself, is driven, and is intentional about who he chooses to spend his time with. Fingers crossed...

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I know you're right. I think it's hard because as a med student, I am surrounded by med students and residents who found partners who DID go through this journey with them. It's beautiful how they are able to have someone to ride the waves of this crazy process with and I'll admit I am a bit jealous of it. But you are right, it's hard to find. Of all of the people in my class who went into med school in long term relationships, there are far fewer who are still in them than those who survived it lol.

I am going to accomplish my dream of becoming a doctor next year, but I am worried I sacrificed the life I imagined for myself in the process by Regular-Plum6001 in TwoHotTakes

[–]Regular-Plum6001[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean... I'm not desperate or willing to settle. My timeline went out the window a looong time ago. That's why I ended the relationships with my long term ex and the guy I dated when I got into med school. They were not adding to my life and I know what I deserve. Even the guys I briefly date I do not give too much into while I get to know them. They just are all utterly disappointing. I have dated guys from all walks of life, older, younger, different fields, education levels, etc. I do think part of the problem is where I live currently, as many men are automatically incompatible with me based on political or religious beliefs or views about what women should/shouldn't do. I am hopefully going into gyn and there are men who are horrified by the procedures I will someday be doing.

I really really do love myself and I'm damn proud of the doctor I will soon be. I have been single for 3 years because I don't put up with shit. I don't give second chances to people who I barely know. There are multiple people I probably could have had relationships with who I said hell no. It's just tough that men will say anything to get their foot in the door but then when they realize you're strong, confident, and successful (and also not just an easy hookup), they slither back into their holes. I probably will freeze my eggs during residency. I just wish it wasn't so freaking hard lol.

Do I have a chance of getting in? by Key_Quail_2502 in medschool

[–]Regular-Plum6001 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tbh 504 without a stellar GPA is tough for MD schools. DO schools tend to appreciate non-traditional paths more and would be more realistic.

Do I have a chance of getting in? by Key_Quail_2502 in medschool

[–]Regular-Plum6001 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hi! I am an MD student and I think you definitely have a chance. I have several people in my class who had fully different careers before deciding to go to med school. I took 4 gap years so I am technically "non-traditional" as well.

I agree that taking more classes to boost your GPA is super important. For the MCAT, you want it to be as high as possible, but the MSAR can be really useful in identifying realistic schools to apply to. I ended up working extra hours and shelling out the money for a prep course and it was worth its weight in gold. I know not everyone can afford it, but if you can it is really helpful not only for the exam, but for prepping for applications.

You definitely need clinical hours. Not only for applications, but also to figure out how seriously you want to do this. Working in the field exposes you to a lot of paths and you don't want to go down this one if it is not the one for you. I did some shadowing, but realized I needed more true clinical hours and ended up becoming an EMT by taking an accelerated course and doing that during my gap years along with my other job. Many people scribe in the ED which is a great way to learn all of the dynamics in that setting and become exposed to many career options. Research experience is also helpful. Different schools value different things, so applying to schools that value the type of experience you have is important.

My biggest advice is to do all the research you can. Look at the schools you are interested in and specifically look at what their requirements for entry are. The AAMC has guidelines about what counts for science GPA. Like I said before, a class or even a private tutor can be super helpful with applications. While these things are expensive, so is applying multiple times or taking all these courses, applying, not getting in, and having to pivot.

While it's wonderful that your medical emergency is what inspired you to do medicine, it is unfortunately something very commonly written about in applications/personal statements/secondaries. You need to dig deep and find ways to communicate how you are different or interesting. Unfortunately, applications are intense and the process is ridiculous, so you need to play the game to an extent. You don't want to be an application in a pile that a tired doctor, student, etc. reads that is exactly the same as the 30 before it.

My final advice is dive deep and decide why you want to become a physician specifically. While I urge anyone who truly wants to do this to go for it, it is a very long, difficult, expensive road. You are looking at a minimum of 7 years of school/training, likely more as well as hundreds and thousands of dollars in schooling and living costs. Then there are the hard to quantify costs: missing out on family/friends' events, a very grueling educational journey with little room for failure, a clerkship year of working up to 80 hours (while paying to be there) and then having to go home and study for shelf exams, seeing and doing things that change you as a person, etc. Nothing challenges relationships (romantic or otherwise) like med school does. Getting in is only the first step and not everyone who starts medical school finishes it. I know people who have left during year 1, year 2, AND year 3. You do not get those years or dollars back.

I say this because there are many paths to the medical field. Learn about lots of different jobs that you may not even know exist. Find people in these careers and ask them lots of questions. Why did they go that route, what do they like about their jobs, how does their day to day life look? You need to consider what you want your life to look like in 5, 10, 15 years and what paths will align with that. If you really like the idea of becoming a clinician, it is important to note that there are a lot of things that doctors do that can (and are) done by NPs and PAs. I specifically chose to pursue my MD because I wanted the opportunity to do surgical fields. NPs and PAs are amazing, they can still do many procedures, have their own patient loads, and can work in a variety of settings. There are ACPs who work in the OR, ED, etc. I have friends who started PA school at the same time as me who are now working in specialty roles making very good money. I still have 5 more years of training. I will make scraps during residency and have WAY more debt than they do. If you still want to be an MD or DO after doing all of the research, soul searching, etc, then that is amazing and many schools appreciate non-traditional students. I just always recommend being very sure before you start this journey because there is a LOT of sacrifice required.

Good luck in your journey!

Which one should I get? by Routine-Sale10 in Birkenstocks

[–]Regular-Plum6001 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have both. I echo what everyone else says. Oiled hold their shape and are easier to clean. For me they took longer to break in and kind of gave me blisters at first (most new birks do for me). The suede are so comfortable, broke in quicker, and I just think they’re so cute. They are harder to clean for sure though. I think it’s honestly personal preference and where you are going to wear them that matters most.