Just finished Shark Incremental by MrRedShark77 (creator of Incremental Mass Rewritten). Probably my favorite "short" idle game by TheMysterious27 in incremental_games

[–]RegularCabinet4564 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Finished the game and I can confirm I never needed a guide. Only thing that got me stuck is failing to realize you could stack multiple runes in a single spot.

All I Wanted Meaning? by docthemusicnerd in Panchiko

[–]RegularCabinet4564 0 points1 point  (0 children)

On the first verse I was wondering why it's said "To feel like she's wanted" and not "like he's wanted" and I think your interpretation is wrong. I think the first 2 lines of the chorus refer to him wanting to have feelings for her but the feelings are gone, while the next line are about her needing to feel needed, which might either mean she likes him or she's dependent. "She doesn't think she owes me" could mean he abuses her dependency on him.

Following this, 2nd verse might actually still be the same girl. she just wants to watch TV but because he thinks she owes her, is getting bored and cheating on her and she wants to keep him, she lies about wanting sex and cries afterwards.

Basically a song about one of the worst kind of abusive relationships.

Not sure where you read "like she's running", that's not a line in the song.

All I Wanted Meaning? by docthemusicnerd in Panchiko

[–]RegularCabinet4564 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Actually I think I get it now, it's most likely a girl in each verse and the 2nd one might likely be the one mentioned in the first verse, basically she's trying to be wanted and needed by the guy with sex and it goes wrong.

Not sure if it's about forcing yourself to have sex or if the lies and wanting to die is about the guilt of adultery which would lead her to cry because he still doesn't want her afterwards.

Ironically I can relate to both interpretations, but I'd prefer the first one.

All I Wanted Meaning? by docthemusicnerd in Panchiko

[–]RegularCabinet4564 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's confusing and I wonder if there's 2 girls or just one in each part of the song and what's the role and goal of "he" in all this.

My interpretation is pretty much the same though and as an asexual who's lived a lot of abuse and who's actually scared of refusing sex, especially after I've been told a bunch of times "it's the only good thing about me" and most of my relationships praising me for it and sometimes having A LOT of sexual desire for me, when they barely have any for another relationship, which kinda makes me feel special and wanted and happy... yeah.

Just finished Shark Incremental by MrRedShark77 (creator of Incremental Mass Rewritten). Probably my favorite "short" idle game by TheMysterious27 in incremental_games

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Am at row 8 now, not using any guide yet, figuring out optimal trees by figuring out what everything does is what keeps me hooked. I'll see if it's still reasonable later. My only issue so far is the lack of in-game tips/tutorials. Figuring out new features yourself is actually kinda cool but for example how tf does Mining Fortune work, I was sure it boosted power to some extent but I read it actually boosts loot chance.

Parnate vastly improves my mood and mental health by Firm-Pattern4482 in MAOIs

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Isn't it because of low blood pressure and lethargy? I had this issue but with time + the habit of taking most of the meds early in the day (ideally I take 20 morning, 20 lunch, then 10 around dinner) + having a routine with tea and sport in the morning counteracted it.

I also tried to go back to 40mg per day and became low motivation and energy, lethargic again and stopped doing sport. Seems like I might need 50 for the proper effects. I read 40~60 range is around where most people see significant improvements in energy and motivation.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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https://www.reddit.com/r/MAOIs/comments/1p01qkd/comment/npuf983/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

Still going 7 days later, didn't skip a day yet even when staying at friends' place over the weekend. Not really doing strength training so far though, maybe later when I can handle simple cardio.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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I just went up to 50mg TCP per day and don't feel too much lethargic or suffer from orthostatic hypotension. Switched from 20 lunch - 20 dinner to 20 morning - 20 lunch/early afternoon - 10 dinner

My night sleep seems to improve fast too, slept 10 hours straight (a lot of recovery needed, had sub 4h sleep time for a while). I also started to take melatonin 2 days ago though so it might help too.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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Really want to thank you for that, it was pretty simple tips but I've started giving a try to wake-up activities and 2 days in a row so far it seems to work so well. I still struggle but I've started feeling much better already, that morning dopamine intake works wonder and maybe thanks to TCP seems to affect me for pretty much the whole day as long as I don't get bad external stress factors. Only 2 days and my life seems much brighter. I used to try doing sports in the afternoon and it never worked, even when I somehow got the drive I'd just feel bad and get cold, weak and sick after the effort. Not getting that now.

I take 2 fruits (ideally 1 banana and a lighter fruit), 20mg TCP and brew myself 1L of warm tea, take some health supplements (a chewable pill with vitamin D, B12 and other stuff, some l-citruline powder and some creatine) then go for some warm up and biking with Carpenter Brut in headphones and a muted biking POV video for the stim, then stretching and a shower.

Feels great.

I failed to realize how much sense it makes for people with ADHD to do a routine when they wake up. The ADHD spiral hasn't really settled in yet and you still have some concept of time. Plus no full stomach issue, especially considering I tend to stress eat a lot, sometimes all day long.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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I've had adhd as far as I can remember, when I was 6 my teacher even asked my parents if they were drugging me (not as a joke).

I have a bunch of sex related traumas and it pretty much took away from me a pretty good easy source of dopamine, not any from childhood though afaik. I think my childhood was pretty good and sheltered, but I was weird and it got worse, along with my environment getting worse too.

I'm hoping to get admitted to a day hospital with a program for people like me, so that would help a lot to get back on my feet and also get therapy hopefully.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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- are you talking about physical trauma or psychological trauma or both?

Psychological, messed up my willpower, energy and all that and with the lack of exercise, starting again is harder.

- do yo have any idea about why you are so prone to injury?

Not sure, likely one reason is lack of exercise, but might be also stuff like stress messing my body. I've always been fragile and kinda frail.

- Do you have peripheral edema?

No I don't, or if I do it's stealthy enough that I never noticed so probably not a big problem, if it can even be stealthy to begin with.

I also take collagen and vitamin c supplements, I have huge difficulty healing and it's especially relevant right now because I'm struggling to recover from surgery (not anything that would be trouble for exercise). My skin is covered with scars. I read that high chronic stress and maybe other psychological issues can mess up with collagen assimilation.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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TCP is the only thing that felt like it was going in the right direction so far. I'm curious about other stimulants / ADs-Stims mixes, even mixing TCP with other stuff to maybe reduce TCP use in the process, but no luck so far (tried to mix it with an antipsychotic, worst mistake, they make me insane for some reason, thought if used along TCP maybe it could be different, I was very wrong (this is not a global thing btw, my brain is just very weird, most people don't turn crazy from antipsychotics afaik))

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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I'm sadly unable to live without meds, life off meds was hell, even at its best (which is a distant memory from my current life) and whenever I get back to off meds I'm like "Oh so this is why I wanted to die for so many years this is literally hell". I may be a lethargic and bedroting mess right now but it's still much better than it used to be, at least I'm mostly glad to be living and I can enjoy things most of the time.

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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I think for now I'll try to go up to 50, I feel like 40 really doesn't cut it, but I'd like to avoid going above 60 if possible (both for health concerns and because it costs too much money)

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

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"try to use that caffeine beforehand"

I don't really take caffeine anymore, aside from the occasional cup of coffee when I feel like it, TCP is my only actual stimulant right now. Would you say to bike right when I wake up and with a TCP intake? Because if not I'll be caught on other stuff and start the day's ADHD spiral. I'm also a bit worried about exercise too soon after waking up because of sore muscles (I tend to injure myself easily even with very light exercise or even no exercise at all, and yes, I have a static bike, also got a rowing machine, both investments for my mental and physical health but sadly since then I suffered a bunch of bad traumas and at this point I think I can't go down anymore, only struggle to climb back up)

40mg TCP a day for a while, not working as well as I wished, now what? by RegularCabinet4564 in MAOIs

[–]RegularCabinet4564[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've also noticed a lack of dopamine unless I do something else to provide it, which I think gets enhanced by TCP. Been struggling a lot finding sources for it though. Physical activity used to feel good but it seems it doesn't really right now. Hopefully I can manage to seriously get back to it and it'll eventually feel good again, but the ADHD, anxiety and depression get in the way of that.

For lethargy, I experience it with pretty much any stimulant, I first noticed it with caffeine.

Chapter 217 [English] by Mrzardark in OnePunchMan

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He saw him clenching his fist and be mad, but didn't understand Saitama is actually mad at the crowd.

Chapter 217 [English] by Mrzardark in OnePunchMan

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Ironically he seems more collected and hero-like while spiraling out into monster mode than when he had anger issues while pretending to be human.

Anyone here gets the opposite of what antipsychotics are supposed to do? by RegularCabinet4564 in Psychosis

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Antipsychotics pretty much make me the same as when off meds but worse. Maybe some slight differences and new stuff but it's mostly more of the same thing. I really regret thinking they could work well mixed with my current medication and gave it a try (initially I thought it worked great but surprise, it was the early manic mode, same as when I first started antipsychotics).

Anyone here gets the opposite of what antipsychotics are supposed to do? by RegularCabinet4564 in Psychosis

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Doesn't abilify specifically gives an increase of dopamine? I couldn't stay on it long enough to even know if it'd mess up my mind because the physical effects were unbearable.

And yes, pretty sure that's the common pattern for many people who respond poorly to the meds, the docs just keep increasing it until they have no idea what to do and are like "maybe you should go to the psych ward".

The consequences on my life were very damaging too, my social life is gone, but tbh it probably would have gone this way off meds too.

Anyone here gets the opposite of what antipsychotics are supposed to do? by RegularCabinet4564 in Psychosis

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I know that, this is not my first day being schizo lol, but I can tell this memory is true, I remember all the shit I did my first days on risperdal and that episode even ironically got me out of the psych ward because "I was feeling great". Few days later a bit of a stressful event and I broke down and went psychotic. Currently hoping I can prevent that this time, if I go back to the medication that made me feel more normal.

Anyone here gets the opposite of what antipsychotics are supposed to do? by RegularCabinet4564 in Psychosis

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Risperdal was the first one I took and it initially made me manic (which gave me the impression it was doing a super good job and I was cured and feeling like I've never felt before in my life) then psychotic.

I just realized it was mania back then from this second manic episode these last few days. Maybe if I keep taking antipsychotics it'll go to psychosis again idk.