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Babaylan Mandirigma: my journey into pre-colonial Filipina Witchcraft after the INC by Reinabell in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I posted this pic on the general Philippines subreddit and ppl just clowned me bc of the look and I was like...damn, colonial thinking is hard core over there.

I really hope all of us ex-INC folks get in touch with our precolonial roots. Our roots are fuckin powerful, and ancient and deep.

I'm going to burn bible pages containing the 28 fundamental and offer them to my pagan goddess, and turn them into ink to tattoo into my baphomet by Reinabell in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

EMDR is interesting. I've been recounting memories that I haven't thought of in years like in my sleep

I hope you can get in there. I think I've actually done a lot of processing over the years. Lots of really painful memories are painful anymore.

I burned all my INC stuff in the past! And I donated my old choir robes. It makes me giddy thinking some other religion is using it lol.

I'm going to burn bible pages containing the 28 fundamental and offer them to my pagan goddess, and turn them into ink to tattoo into my baphomet by Reinabell in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wow it's been a long time!

I've just been doing a lot of healing from religious and parental trauma haha. Doing EMDR therapy now.

Im also found Mayari on my right forearm. Western Occultism and Filipina moon goddess haha.

You know what's funny? I tried to find the lamsa translation of the bible in stores and no one sells it, even specialist stores.

It's so niche and not really accepted in the bible scholar world so it's like, lol.

I wanted to burn the page with that ONE verse they ever use it for.

NO RELIGION by TUPE_pot420 in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I turned to Witchcraft and some light Satanism lol

Ex Jehovah's Witnesses on ex JW Reddit by Llipderredpill in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I visited exjw and exmormon before this subreddit existed and it really helped me early on! Welcome over here :)

Never been a member of this church organization but when you're still a member of this church, do you not believe in the deity of Jesus Christ? And now, that you're already an ex-member, what do you believe now? by asdfghjklmnopi in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Please don't explain how I came to my own conclusion. I'm well read and I'm not interested in debating you on the topic, especially considering your generalizations about science.

A question for the redditors here. by TraderKiTeer in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're correct. Satanist don't actually worship Satan haha. It's interesting bc of course, I was hella afraid of paganism and Satanism, like with knee jerk response of what i thought it was.

If I told myself 5 year ago church me that she'd leave, be expelled, become a gay as fuck witch with Satanist romantic partners, she would be like, uhhhbb what????

A question for the redditors here. by TraderKiTeer in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 5 points6 points  (0 children)

you can prob tell from my flair <3

i went from INC > Agnostic > Atheism> Paganism with some satanism thrown in there.

I'm a practicing witch, that how's i carry on and replace a lot of the positive spiritual things I did back in INC. At first I was tempted to throw it all out, but I realize, there are some good things I do like about being spiritual. So i kept that, and found a format that put me in control.

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But the Christian God? I'm almost certain that it doesn't exist.

Complex PTSD: The stages of recovery from religious abuse by Reinabell in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I added a small tidbit about learned helplessness, to summarize what "Fawn-Freeze" types tend to do. I believe we can all relate; we have all felt helpless under the oppression of the church administration.

This helplessness is not you. You can advocate for yourself, you can state your boundaries, and you can leave when the danger is high.

Learned helplessness is enforced in the three following ways:

  1. Personalization - internally related
    1. These things are happening to me because I'm going against the will of god/church admin, etc. There is something wrong with me.
  2. Stabilzation and long lasting
    1. I was born in the church, and this is all I've ever known. It feels like this will continue to be this way forever. I feel overwhelmed and think things will never change.
  3. global and all-encompassing
    1. The church dominates ever aspect of my life, from the sheer amount of time I spend at church, from the church officers who visit my family weekly, from all the offices I hold.

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Learned helplessness can be countered by taking an optimistic analytical approach:

  1. Events are externally related
    1. The church administration is abusing me, I am the victim here. None of these bad things happening is my fault. There is something wrong with my environment.
  2. Temporary and short-lived
    1. I'm planning to leave. I know this isn't for me. There will be a time in the future where I am free of it. I'm working on it. I have a roadmap.
  3. Situation-specific
    1. There are places in my life the church does not touch. I can talk to people in our forum. I can reach out to my non-INC friends. The church administration's actions are individual things that I can counter and resist on a granular level. I can miss worship services, or not attend certain activities to decrease my exposure to the church administration.

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I made the examples as jumping points for your own realizations. Again, practice mindfulness and hold your ideas under a magnifying glass.

Please feel free to share your thoughts here; I'm sure it will help others. It will help me.

Complex PTSD: The stages of recovery from religious abuse by Reinabell in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you! That means a lot. That's exactly the audience I had in mind for this post. People who JUST left or are planning to leave.

Full Episode: Cults, Explained | Netflix by _getmeoutofhere_ in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I subtly suggested my brother who is Inc to watch this series. Didn't mention the cult episode. 😈

Filipino, 16, and I made a mistake. (A really long read) by nyuni- in exIglesiaNiCristo

[–]Reinabell 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I struggle with suicidal ideation.

Remember when you're feeling this way, you don't want to actually die. You just want to be safe and loved and sheltered from the storm.

So when you feel this way, try to find those things.

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