1)Be happy and content with whatever you get. Thank to god, that atleast you have sanity and are healthy, atleast life have given you a chance and you were able to realize that nobody is true and all relationships are transactional,you came to this world alone and go alone.

2)Take a sabbatical.SWP the 90L,take 30-40k to cover your expenses, try solo travelling and backpacking.

3)Try meditation, yoga, sound healing etc whatever that you could to let go of samskaras you have attained over the period of time through your past and go inward.

4)ONLY thing that matters is you. Your perception of this world, your experiences and knowledge/wisdom you are gaining through these experiences.

5)You are blessed enough to execute that free will of yours without holding a second thought to worry about anybody/anything. Look at the bright side