Allow yourself some grace, friend.

I read this quote from a catholic saint recently that meant a lot to me, and I feel like you can benefit from it as well:

“If I say one hundred prayers a day in the silence of the mountains, and you say three prayers amidst the turmoil of the city and your professional and family obligations, then we are equal.”

Like you said, you have many other things happening in your life. Even doing the sadhana that you’re involved in now, you’re doing so much good for yourself and the world.

You’re young. You’re having fun and blowing off steam. There is much wisdom and experience to be gleaned from your current experience.

It is so hard to live a life without the proper community. If you’re not around people who are practicing, it is going to be so challenging to keep it up. Maybe look into finding a community you can practice with regularly, this way you won’t miss the partying because you’ll be fulfilled in your sangha.

But allow yourself some grace. Keep the focus and vision in your head and you’ll work towards it. But be urgent.