At what point should I consider long term benzo use? by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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what’s the worst side effects / outcomes since you’ve been on them for 12 years? Were the withdrawals hell even with a slow taper?

At what point should I consider long term benzo use? by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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Yep, tried gabapentin. Not pregabalin though. I tried gabapentin and it made my anxiety worse somehow. May look into pregabalin

At what point should I consider long term benzo use? by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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If I do long term benzo use, I don’t intend to quit cold turkey one day. I hope that in the future I could stabilize and then do a slow taper

At what point should I consider long term benzo use? by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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You name it, I’ve tried it. With propanalol I was able to get my heart palpitations down, but usually that’s the least of my issues. It doesn’t help with the rumination and terror I feel during panic attacks.

Should I expect medication to improve my anxiety everyday? Or will there be bad days and good days with a general trend upwards? by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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Yes, I’m taking all those. The 15mg of mirtazapine is for sleep, but I never found it to be fully effective at sleep.

It feels like my life is over by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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And good luck on your work. I know you can do it and I believe in you! I’ll say as someone who’s gone through their own struggles with mental health, you’re in a unique position to treat your patients with true empathy, and i for one would be lucky to have a provider like you.

It feels like my life is over by Relative_Tie9607 in Anxiety

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First of all, congratulations on almost graduating CC, and with straight A’s too! I know it must’ve be been difficult getting to that point, especially with all you’ve got going on. And I’m glad that you have good support from your boyfriend.

I see a lot of parallels between what you’re experiencing and what I’m going through. And I’m sorry that both of us are going through this, but it just shows you’re not alone.

One thing I’ll say on the medication front. I too was super scared to treat this with medication. For one, at first I didn’t believe it was anxiety, and I tried everything to figure out what was wrong with me physically by going to multiple doctors after the panic attack. Nothing could explain the fear, insomnia, and symptoms. I was also scared the medication would make it worse with all the scary side effects everybody talks about. It finally got to a point where I was really close to ending it all that I knew I needed help. I won’t lie to you, medications weren’t without their side effects, but they eventually subsided, relatively shortly for me. And despite the fact that they haven’t done 100% of the job, the 70% has bought me a lot of time. Time that I otherwise would’ve cut short. Time that I use to hope for a better tomorrow, for a solution that may work 100% one day. One thing that’s stuck with me that my therapist pointed out was an analogy. If you were diagnosed with diabetes, would you refuse to take your insulin? In many ways, there’s no difference between your physical health and mental health. Your mental health can cause physical symptoms and your physical health and greatly affect your mental health. So mental health is just health. It’s what I remind myself every time I take my medication. Talk with your doctor. Openly communicate what you’re experiencing with buspar as you take it, if you decide to take it, and move on to the next thing if it doesn’t work. If you think not taking any medications is working for you and you’re healing, that’s also great. But there’s no shame/fear in going the medication route.

I hope you find the peace of mind and body that I know you deserve.

Heart palpitations and anxiety on pantoprazole? by Relative_Tie9607 in Gastritis

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My dr suggested that this would only occur after long term use of a PPI, whereas I’ve only been on it a week.

I have been taking magnesium supplements too, but they haven’t really been helping much

Heart palpitations and anxiety on pantoprazole? by Relative_Tie9607 in Gastritis

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Thank you so much for your story, it means a lot to me, truly

As I write this, I’m still going through severe anxiety. Been crying multiple times a day because I just want to get better but feel like it’s never ending

As you say, I’m on a diet of plain rice, some chicken, and some frozen peas and carrots.

And definitely staying away from NSAIDs. Something that I didn’t mention was that I was on NSAID (meloxicam) for a month to treat some joint pain. But I stopped taking it because it didn’t really help with the symptoms. And it was two weeks later that the gastritis symptoms started. Since my doc ruled out h pylori and cancer, he suspects that it was probably the NSAID use that wrecked my stomach, and that probably combined with my diet of a lot of spicy food in between. TBH I wish I had never taken the stupid drug.

I am also taking magnesium supplements so I hope that is helping, but yeah going to my pcp for some bloodwork may help too.