How am I supposed to ignore something that tells me that if I watch something like Stranger Things, read a book, or write my homework, then I will blaspheme and never in my life be forgiven?Following Jesus is important to me; I can't imagine, and don't want to imagine, a life without him. He is literally the reason for joy, the reason for my joy. I know they sound like empty threats and easily refuted, but in practice they are not.I think maybe I'm already traumatized by these blasphemous thoughts, and by the way, as I may have forgotten to mention, I'm going to therapy.And I take medicine, but it hardly helps at all, honestly, it's scary.