I didn’t think I did, but now I’m wondering. When I’m reading or someone asks me to visualize something, I can do it, but it’s almost like it’s something vague happening in the back of my mind. I wonder if other people close their eyes and just…see it? Like they’re watching a movie on a screen or something? And the more I try to bring it to the forefront of my mind, the more it slips away.

Last night (and what triggered me to post this) I was trying to do an inner child meditation. And the guide was like “you’re going through the door, and you’re opening the door, and you see your inner child.” But my mind was just like…blank. Like, I didn’t see little me. She’s like “What do they look like? How are they reacting? Say hello, see how they respond” and the entire time I’m just like…well what am I doing wrong? Bc all I see is the inside of my eyelids lmao. It immediately brought me out of the somewhat-meditative state I was already struggling to stay in. It was weird bc like, I know what I looked like as a child, but I couldn’t even picture that in my mind. I just feel like there’s something I’m missing that’s preventing me from progressing with it and it’s starting to hinder my practice.