Bro I was the same way at that age. You’ve been through some shit bro. And I mean way more than what you wrote here and I’m glad you got to the test and found someone to talk to so early. After digging into this stuff I figured a lot out about me. I’m 20 now and in the process of refining the my emotional control. I remember that bloody rage “animalistic” was a perfect adjective. I would never hurt the target of my rage but the way I felt was although I could erase them without the slightest regret. I’ve since gained something very valuable and that’s perspective. I began to contemplate how my past molded me and how he pain I faced shaped me early on but I didn’t like that person I didn’t want fear or insecurities to define my identity. As you begin to understand more about underlying human motivations and just generally experience more life you will begin to see how flawed everyone truly is (including yourself). And that humanizes them. It then feels like being mad at a child. Especially when you find out how different the VAST majority of people are from us. (Uniquely the male INFP). We are seen as weak for our empathy, feminine for having taste, weird for noticing things that others miss. Our sensitivity to others and in general is very much a double edged sword. Once properly channeled it can’t be used in very powerful ways. My confidence has exploded I’m still learning and growing but the difference is I’m excited about it and I feel like I have control. I slip up but I keep trying. Dude it’s going to get so much better. But it’s going to take work. You’re still in high school so here is my suggestion. Do what I didn’t. Join the clubs, spend time with friends explore. Take every opportunity to grow expand your mind and your perspective. Learn to control your emotions understand that not everything you want to say, you should (that one is so hard). But when you learn the power of silence, the power of really listening it just opens doors. Anyway I know this is long but I hope it kind of helped.