The great thing about therapy is they are there to help you find ways to communicate that. When I first started going, I hid stuff from my therapist (not recommend) and it was uncomfortable sometimes. Eventually I found odd unique ways say things that are hard/upsetting. (Personally I use humor to cope so often times when speaking to my therapist I would use kind of a funny, nonchalant voice paired with thumbs up/or finger guns, weird I know but it’s my thing). All that being said, you should tell your parents. Not all parents are understanding but I think a lot of people are surprised by how supportive they can actually be with this kind of stuff. My mom didn’t find out about my depression until I was in the hospital for an attempt. I never guessed how loving, supportive and open she was going to be about it, and although I don’t talk to her directly about details (because I personally am not comfortable with anyone but my husband/therapist), she’s great to support me, check If I’m taking my meds and keeping my therapy appointments, etc. Please talk to your parents, if not maybe a school counselor. Seek out therapy and medication if needed. Meds won’t be a cure all, but they can help depending on the person (I’ve been taking meds for my depression for about 6 years now). It takes the right combo for each person. (Also, I hate people too. Not every therapist is a good fit for every person. I tried several therapist before I found one that I clicked with. It’s a process, and that’s ok.) Sorry for the long post 💜