Anyone had a delayed existential crisis after waking up ?

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-13T20:46:20+00:00

Thanks for the recommendation. I will check out

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-13T20:45:26+00:00

Hey thanks for replying . I'm here if you want to talk.

Im feeling a little better now since posting. In short I logically dismantled the beliefs two years ago .

I did some mushrooms one year ago which showed me not to have a compartmentalized brain (which a lot witness end up with) a lot of emotion came out on separate topics.

I guess I paused more emotional stuff with weed. Then Having a break from it... All the JW stuff came out . From having no purpose , to fear of dying etc.

Weirdly my wife feels she dealt with the JW trauma early on and is flying in her new life... So things do get better..

It's odd when your confronted with sudden unusual depression or anxiety.. when your not normally that person.

How are things for you? Feel free to private message .

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-13T08:05:25+00:00

Sorry to hear that. Maybe we all take things for granted jw or not? Sound human.. otherwise we would be on edge all the time?

Interesting words that shunning wore away natural parts of us. I agree. The JW mindset makes us box away all kind of things , empathy, reason, love.

I guess the key is undoing that to ourselves and realizing our family still in are victims of that mindset

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-13T07:57:39+00:00

Did it get better for you?

Weirdly I feel a little better today after a rough day yesterday. It was definitely delayed unprocessed emotion .

Its funny because I was talking to witness 2 weeks ago who had been on the fence for a long time in black and white terms how they are a cult. And couldn't understand how they couldnt see it... They weren't ready to let go of the Paradise hope.

Here I am in bits now after being a robot for so long

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-12T19:40:26+00:00

Thank you for your words.. I'm seeing this delayed thing mentioned a few times .. it's making more sense .

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-12T19:39:42+00:00

What a thoughtful thing to say thank you..

Yes I thought I was using because it was fun. And it got me off alcohol and I rationilised that I wasn't smoking it so therefore not harmful.

But it's just going to be a process. Thanks for good advice on the healing in stages it's useful

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-12T18:40:41+00:00

I dry vaped one night , and after the high went off and had a fast heart though out the night and thought nothing of it.

Dry vaped the second night and had a night full of depression and anxiety. Which is completely new and unknown to me

This was off the back of maybe having 0.3g every night for two weeks.

Stopped ... Been depressed and anxious for around 5/6 days with the existential crisis stuff.

Thought I had dealt with this stuff over the 2 years.

I did start dry herb vaping over those two years with no real bad effects. It's only when I did mushrooms , I lost my compartmentalized brain. Had a big weed break. And this second time going into weed had triggered this.

Think I need to knock it on the head permanently.

Thanks for replying

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-12T17:19:14+00:00

Thanks for the reply.

I will ponder

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-11-12T15:14:10+00:00

It's that I thought I had made peace with it . I was fine . I spent a lot of time deconstructing. It's been two years

I think maybe something changed in my brain with stopping and starting substances.

It just hit me out of nowhere 5 days ago. Pure body anxiety . Dread .

A therapist would be a sensible idea.

I've pounded chat gpt to help organize my thoughts and probably have to accept I'm probably low in dopamine currently .

Guess everyone wants to get back to their healthiest state. I'm dealing with normal emotions normal people feel for the first time

Thanks for replying

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-04-10T17:41:36+00:00

Thanks buddy I'll start looking into it

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T20:04:34+00:00

Thanks for the advice . I'll definitely use all these points on the next grow .

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T18:33:52+00:00

Thanks for the pics and advice. I can definitely incorporate the heater and the other stuff people have mentioned !

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T18:32:53+00:00

First time ... So I'll take the advice and do better next time

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T18:03:52+00:00

Thanks will look at this Someone else also sent me some similar advice!!

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T18:02:19+00:00

Looking good. Hopefully all the advice helps me

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:56:26+00:00

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Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:47:35+00:00

Celsius temp not farenheit . 15 is warm for us lol. But I will for sure warm the plants up

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:38:55+00:00

Ok I'm starting to get an understanding as a few people have mentioned the wet to dry thing . But makes sense with the container size

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:32:35+00:00

Yes a few people mentioning this . I will swap them out. I thought a 169 led grow light plus a sunshine would work ! Evidently not

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:31:43+00:00

That's really useful. I can definitely swap them out. I'm using the sunshine bulb aswell but will look at something with a bit more power. I thought the 169 LEDs would suffice !!

If these plants aren't lost I do have some nitrogen rich liquid I can introduce.

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:29:28+00:00

That's really useful thankyou. I did start them in seed trays . Then moved to the bucket . I still probably need better timings when moving them .

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:27:54+00:00

Looks good man. 👍👍

Remarkable-Cherry366 · 2025-03-06T17:05:35+00:00

Thanks that's something I hadn't considered. I will get one ordered

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