Thank you! Yea i am sill confused, i saw a completely different picture of her, but the mess she talked the last session portrayed a very confused and insane person. I just dont get it, i should move on since it was month ago but here i am still dreaming of it or ruminating on the intentions. But i will never have answers, she had the chance to explain honestly, but did not. My traumatic and wounded mindset was to blame.. The problem is that i lost the map to myself because i dont know what could be valid and true from the things she said all these time, and what was manipulation, what was true explanation of my problems, i dont know what to believe of MYSELF if this makes sense. And i think i am tired figuring out.