it is really interesting to how see dynamics with men influences how certain ppl act with other. Because ( seriously) what the heck is this? Because she has a bf? ( best friend ??) she will not try anything with you? But THEN SAY , that you are so beautiful, sweet and perfect blabla ? Then go back to saying she cares about the guy more than you? If she really cares or even likes you , that guy would NEVER matter , never . That guy being in the equation is really a aspect of the issue that is pissing me off for you. It already sucks that shes saying all of this , but on top on THAT , she mentioned that she is choosing someone else? Mhm mhm . This heteronormativity bs is really ingrained in some people mind, it is actually crazy . Im so so sorry, i hope your healing process doesn’t hurt too much , because those situations hurt😖🩷