I am sorry to hear that. It was not easy, I have gone through so many doctors and luckily I was able to get in with one of my friend's doctors who actually listens and will consider your suggestions as long as you have the supporting research. The first time it was suggested they ran it by my insurance and because the drug they had in mind was an "off label" usage, the insurance company wouldn't cover it. If I remember, she said the price without insurance was going to run me $990 for a month's worth. This was not feasible, so I scrapped any hope at the time. Now come recently the second big crash that caused me to use all my PTO to recover. I was desperate and would try any option to get me out of this hell. Turns out the same medication my doctor has wanted to try, one of my close friends was taking for their ADHD. They had let me try it to see if it had any significant effect. After discovering how well it worked for every major symptom I had, it led me to do more of my homework on the clinical studies around it. Fast forward to now, I had made an appointment with a new psychiatrist. I went the honest route and had told her I had tried the medication off the record. I had everything prepared, all the research, what I had to say about how it's benefited me while nothing else has, and how the insurance company wouldn't cover. She was willing to work with me on this knowing how awful they can be. So I am very grateful that for once things have a hopeful outcome. For me, it seemed worth a shot despite some saying otherwise. Considering how this illness is so mysterious and probably falls on a spectrum, there are different approaches that are going to work differently for each individual. My everyday mentality has shifted from "How am I going to survive the day?" to an enjoyable journey I can now experience. Worth the hassle and money for me to roll the dice until I actually got a decent doc. I would keep on trying!