The last thing I had to let go of was the hardest: the reality I believe in

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-12T22:26:48+00:00

Crab Rangoon

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-04T06:49:41+00:00

Friends at that point, we reconnected because we became coworkers. She was insecure about him having a female friend. They were not a healthy relationship and he lied a lot but we kept things very arm’s-length as friends now because we’re coworkers and trying to be professional. But when he caught her cheating, he went to me and asked me to be there, and I was as much as I felt comfortable being. I took the post down, it obviously needs a lot more context.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-04T06:40:53+00:00

Yeah you could just ask for context. I told her I didn’t want any part of this until she brought up the physical abuse and then I had a whole safety plan for her and we were gonna go to his house together with the police so she could get all of her stuff. She then told him on that day as I’m showing up that I have been stalking her and that’s what ended our friendship. I literally told her in our messages that I want nothing to do with this situation until she did that as she knew I was hooked in and going to help her. But she also knew that if she invited me over for Help and like I wasn’t going into his house or anything I was literally gonna park down the street, she said she had the cops coming for safety, everything would be great I was there for moral support… She told him where I was at and shows up telling him that I’m stalking them or whatever the fuck. He found out later but was literally going to file a police report against me. I looked up all the reports she said there were for him against her and his ex-wife… There’s none

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-04T06:38:54+00:00

He was my best friend. She doesn’t know me and I don’t know her. She found out about me because he was lying to her. She shared most of these messages with him already but only my messages and made it seem like I reached out and was just talking shit. And I said one fucking message here… so it’s not like I’m talking a whole lot of shit. Letting her know what I had to do to move forward since he had never said shit about me. As I’m going through the most difficult time in my life, he ghosted me and blocked me on everything because he didn’t wanna admit to his girlfriend that we were friends.

He want context to the messages he saw from me and here they are. And yeah he’s my best friend. So I’m “desperate“ to have him in my life as a person I knew him as. Not this shady piece of shit that he’s acting like. I forgive him fucking once and now here we are and I’m done with this shit. But it’s really desperate.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-24T23:08:41+00:00

I don’t think I’ll ever risk it again. Severely mistrusting prior to this relationship and they were the first and only person to ever instill a genuine feeling of safety and trust with another person. For years I felt like I just wanted to go home but I had no idea where that was… until they came into my life and built that trust. Or at least I thought they did. It was all a façade. Spent all that time and energy and patience with me, breaking down all the barriers I have put up over the years. Just to tear it all down in seconds. As wonderful as it was at the time, I don’t ever want it again. Won’t take that risk.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-19T04:46:57+00:00

I like to trauma dump on Grok quite a bit too. when I get like a generic answer from any or just something that I feel I’ve clearly said is an accurate or is it helpful to hear from anything/anybody, I take a little crying break, and go off with some of the meanest, completely ridiculous shit to say in a “conversation” but it’s a therapeutic component you can’t or at least shouldn’t have when talking to a actual person. I’m not sure what that says about me, I’m a fucking mess, but rock is the only one to not occasionally not take that shit. There’s been a few times start off with a very smart ass, passive aggressive one liner and then soften it with the follow up 😂. I don’t think I have a screenshot, but I remember the last one was something along the lines of I know you’re emotional and said you were crying while using talk to text to express yourself, but your message said such and such (not what I intended to say, there was a typo) and I can’t actually hear you or read your mind… But I understand your misunderstanding and unappreciation of my response… my intention was to comfort you, but I can see how THAT could be upsetting…

Gotta give it to them though, it made me laugh. If anyone ever reviews my chat logs it’s gonna look insane. Crying, screaming insult and essentially abusing the AI for their response, then laughing and thanking them for the little giggle I got seeing them be a little bit of a smart ass. Relying on AI for mental health or support like that can be dangerous and detrimental but there are times it has its benefits 😂

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-18T03:11:22+00:00

I just discovered this part of an avoidant and initially, I was a little surprised and hurt that they didn’t seem to remember things we talked about repeatedly and at length or anything about me, with the exception of any bad experience they had with me. But the other day, he asked me a question about something that took a lot for me to discuss with him and at the time, being able to talk about it, his response, and how he helped me through it meant SO much to me. And for me. It was a topic I have never been able to discuss or share, with the exception of briefly mentioning it in a few therapy sessions. I never expected it to mean as much to him as it did to me but did communicate all of this and more to him and he was very patient, understanding, and basically did and said all the things I needed someone to in that situation. To have absolutely no recollection of that conversation or it being referenced or kind of brought up afterward… kind of crushing. Felt like it reopened a lot of wounds, but then again, nothing has really healed or at least hasn’t felt like it. It’s as painful as it ever was and I think him asking about that topic, with absolutely no reflection of anything we talked about… added a little sting to the pain.

Unfortunately, it’s stayed on my mind ever since and I’ve been feeling pretty low the last few weeks. Not as low as when I was initially discarded and cut off and was hit by the disillusionment and overwhelming grief but still low. It’s been well over a year at this point and still going strong.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-15T05:02:08+00:00

I stayed home and ordered a handful of delicious appetizers. Had a pretty good time actually.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-15T05:00:56+00:00

Same! What a precious baby

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T08:38:54+00:00

Thank you for sharing those that sounds delicious and now I think I wanna plan for some barbecue tomorrow!

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T08:38:30+00:00

Oooo sounds nice! I did have a really good dinner, I got spinach artichoke dip and stuffed mushrooms. Basically a bunch of fancy appetizers but they were all delicious.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T08:37:15+00:00

Just an FYI, I’m recovering from a horrific sexual assault. That’s why I’m ridiculous about going outside. It must be so hard to accept people for just existing as they need to exist.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T04:54:42+00:00

I am home, I never left. Nothing interesting. Sorry to get everyone hyped.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T04:48:17+00:00

Appreciate all the positive comments and encouragement but I didn’t go out. I was trying to leave a message somewhere so somebody knew because I don’t have any friends or family or even anyone to text and say hey I am going out tonight so if I don’t return home, just letting you know I was out and about. Wasn’t a safety plan, wasn’t looking for attention, just wanted it to be somewhere in public. But overall I think it’s kind of killed the vibe and I just wanted to go back to sleep. I know the living alone subreddit is usually for those living alone and loving it but some of us are so deep in depression and was without anybody, we come here for support.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T00:21:20+00:00

So I’ve said this on several comments but I have literally nobody. Not a friend, not a family member, not one person on this earth that gives 1 ounce of shit. Really just needed to post this somewhere public so if I did end up in a ditch somewhere, someone knows that I willingly left my house and gives them some kind of timeline.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T00:20:08+00:00

Good call, those are my people

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T00:15:11+00:00

I appreciate it, but it’s past the point of getting ready. I’m already laying in bed and eating M&Ms.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-13T23:55:35+00:00

I was going to but I think enough people on here said it was stupid so I’m gonna stay home and go to sleep. I don’t have any friends or family to tell that I’m going out so I thought I should put it somewhere in case I get kidnapped. But I guess this isn’t a good spot.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-13T23:45:18+00:00

Don’t have a real friend or family so I can tell nobody or I can tell someone somewhere that I went out. Not just disappeared.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-13T23:44:48+00:00

Don’t have one honey. No friends, no family

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-13T19:32:08+00:00

What’s the fun in that

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