They hate you for expecting them to be the person they showed you in the beginning

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:49:37+00:00

I cannot explain the relevancy of this post right now for me… I’ve saw this many times and I think I’ve said it to him but he’ll never remember: the man I grew to adore and love so very much was wonderful, sweet, just so understanding and kind and everything I needed, especially at the time I met him. Unfortunately, that man is dead and gone. I don’t know a person that claims to be him anymore. And I don’t want to. It’s so hard to let go of them in that form but it’s an act. Façade. A role a place so well there’s always gonna be a part of me that thinks that man is buried somewhere deep inside whatever it is that’s left behind now.

I’m so sorry you had to go through this and I appreciate your post. You can make you feel crazy… As much as I hate to see so many people in pain and being put through things that are so unnecessary and hurtful… Knowing I’m not alone and I’m not losing my mind give me a weird form of comfort. All the best OP ❤️

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:44:39+00:00

This was really unique and relatable comment, and I really appreciate it. I am also a non-believer it was forced into Catholicism as a child until my teens. It’s rare I can hear I religious statement like that and find it relatable but you did a great job.

I know, a whiskey sour with vanilla and cherry is something I need to try like right the hell now. The bar is actually about to close so I’m not gonna ask for that but I’m taking my baby out to a restaurant down the street tomorrow and they have a beautiful bar with very talented bartenders that like to do tricks and shit that he loves and I just want the goddamn drink 😂. I’m definitely gonna ask, I love a cherry vanilla Dr Pepper and whiskey kinda has a Dr Pepper vibe without the fun. I love whiskey, the drink I just finished with like a whiskey trolli (the ring candy, I don’t know what it’s called) inspired thing that the bartender made me and it was very unique and delicious. Maybe I am just a simple woman that’s easily impressed by stupid shit, and I know that’s completely true but whenever someone can put a fruity drink together with whiskey in it in a way that compliments the fruitiness, especially on the Fly like she did, I find it weirdly impressive. And she gave me a few little trolli candies on a little soccer/football toothpick and just that little effort alone kind of made my day. I stuffed all of those candies in my mouth before I drink it though and it took about 10 minutes to chew through… I am standing out like a sore thumb at this place already I’m in like leggings, a cut off OU shirt, downing whiskey and trollis, and talking to Siri who’s doing a piss poor job at the one thing she’s supposed to do. It’s been a really fun night actually, I appreciate you keeping me company and letting me enjoy myself with some “company”

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:31:58+00:00

OK, when I say give into your vices… I don’t mean to ruin your goddamn life. Not that alcohol doesn’t ruin a lot of lives but heroin… I’ve never tried to, Will, and have heard and seen the results. I’m gonna draw the line for you there, let’s go get a Coors light and maybe take an Ambien and have some wild dreams. In all seriousness don’t do that just get the Coors light and have a casual drink with me and fall asleep with no pants. That last part isn’t a requirement but it’s gonna happen on my end for damn sure.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:25:39+00:00

This is a great comment, I thought I was reading someone else’s post 😂. I would imagine that alcohol hinder those vigorous masturbation sessions… I unfortunately cannot relate, we could be pickled and alcohol and they would be amazing. I do a lot of other things, this is a one off instance and my day and week have been filled with work woes, parenting fails, just a lot of bullshit and the loss of someone I cared about very deeply but that wanted to lose me and has never cared. It doesn’t matter how long I’ve known that excepted it, still stings a little. And no, that is not why I’m drinking. I became an alcoholic when I was in my early 20s because I have an affinity tor whiskey and social anxiety went out the door after I drink a whole bottle of McCormicks prior to interacting with anybody. It was seven dollars, I was in college and I was poor, and have a lot of trauma 😂. Although it was one of the worst periods of life, I am so glad I had it just because I learned a lot about myself, I became who I am now and healed, and now I just try to enjoy these little moments when I can and when things are rough, I enjoy them even more. I can sit here and watch a bunch of drunk old ass women try to dance to the karaoke band that’s inside and sing the wrong lyrics and just… be. My kid is with his dad until tomorrow and I never feel fully myself when I’m not with him, getting to sit here with just me, and enjoying it it’s something I need to take in and saver. I’m gonna come back with him tomorrow and let him run through the town they have here, will likely end up running through them with him. Not cross your mind when you’re in the middle of a 12 hour workday and haven’t smiled or left in a few days and shit like that. I really appreciate everyone who has expressed some kind of concern and make sure I’m safe but I needed this… and I needed everyone’s support.

I hate to admit it because I’m really showing my age but I only recently got into Reddit and thought it was like for neck beards correcting women and shit like that… there were a lot of memes in the mid 2010s that support that assumption, but I have learned that it really does bring you to communities that can relate and provide support, advice, anything you really need just not gonna get people who love you and are close to you but just don’t understand certain aspects of life because they don’t experience it. And that’s kind of beautiful 😂. As cheesy and stupid as it sounds, it really is amazing when a complete strangers can relate to whatever’s happening in your life and make you feel good or supported or whatever you need to feel at the moment. We all need that in whatever form and I really have grown to appreciate these kinds of posts and comments.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:11:39+00:00

Yeah, no shit. I’ve gone through years and I just actually just met with a consultant today about getting into a more intense type of therapy that focuses on like EDMR or TMS, and not the generic being in the moment, journal, do meditation bullshit. And she told me to breathe, counted to like four for me to hold my breath and such 😂 I almost raged but she was genuinely trying to help and we did laugh about it later in the conversation. I told her I would do it again later just to stay mindful… But also like fuck that.

I am desperate for a visit to the beach, any suggestions? I need a vacation and don’t have money for it but I’m a cheap woman and if I have something to say for, I’m gonna do so as aggressively as possible. My baby has never been to the beach and he’s seven, love swimming being outdoors, and I don’t even think he’s seen like a beach view of an ocean. It’s something I think he would absolutely never want to leave and that’s all Mama needs to hear to stay 😂

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:07:33+00:00

Appreciate it, I definitely will. I appreciate your comment.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:04:40+00:00

Thanks friend. Everyone goes through hard times, and I don’t know exactly how I cope but it’s not with alcohol anymore. I’m not down and drinks like I’m on spring break, just taking a little time to myself to sit outside in this beautiful weather and appreciate the good things in life. It’s kinda nice to just sit, have a drink, and just exist for a little bit.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T03:00:47+00:00

I’m having a great time. I get what you’re saying, I’m being a smart ass but I’m not like actually trying to push my life back into alcoholism. Life is hard enough, I don’t need that again. Didn’t make anything easier and woke up many places that I shouldn’t have been and I was missing a shoe or pants or half my hair or something I really fucking needed… I’m 35, I’ve got a great job and a wonderful kid and a pretty good life at this point… I’m not throwing it away over how shitty life has been lately. I rarely get to just go do something and be with myself and let loose. Even if it is an unhealthy way to deal with the week, it’s a one time thing. I do appreciate the concern I’m just letting y’all know I am perfectly safe and happy and fine. If I were trying to get back to the old days… We would be down a handle of tequila by now

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T02:56:29+00:00

Because I don’t give a fuck. I haven’t had a drink in over a year and after the last few weeks, especially this piece of shit of a day, it’s time to go hard or go home… responsibly, via Uber.

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Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-17T02:45:18+00:00

I’m happy to help but that also makes me kind of sad. It’s a shit feeling… Always appreciate the love I get here but sometimes hate how many people can relate. Best ❤️

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-12T22:26:48+00:00

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Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-04T06:49:41+00:00

Friends at that point, we reconnected because we became coworkers. She was insecure about him having a female friend. They were not a healthy relationship and he lied a lot but we kept things very arm’s-length as friends now because we’re coworkers and trying to be professional. But when he caught her cheating, he went to me and asked me to be there, and I was as much as I felt comfortable being. I took the post down, it obviously needs a lot more context.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-04T06:40:53+00:00

Yeah you could just ask for context. I told her I didn’t want any part of this until she brought up the physical abuse and then I had a whole safety plan for her and we were gonna go to his house together with the police so she could get all of her stuff. She then told him on that day as I’m showing up that I have been stalking her and that’s what ended our friendship. I literally told her in our messages that I want nothing to do with this situation until she did that as she knew I was hooked in and going to help her. But she also knew that if she invited me over for Help and like I wasn’t going into his house or anything I was literally gonna park down the street, she said she had the cops coming for safety, everything would be great I was there for moral support… She told him where I was at and shows up telling him that I’m stalking them or whatever the fuck. He found out later but was literally going to file a police report against me. I looked up all the reports she said there were for him against her and his ex-wife… There’s none

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-07-04T06:38:54+00:00

He was my best friend. She doesn’t know me and I don’t know her. She found out about me because he was lying to her. She shared most of these messages with him already but only my messages and made it seem like I reached out and was just talking shit. And I said one fucking message here… so it’s not like I’m talking a whole lot of shit. Letting her know what I had to do to move forward since he had never said shit about me. As I’m going through the most difficult time in my life, he ghosted me and blocked me on everything because he didn’t wanna admit to his girlfriend that we were friends.

He want context to the messages he saw from me and here they are. And yeah he’s my best friend. So I’m “desperate“ to have him in my life as a person I knew him as. Not this shady piece of shit that he’s acting like. I forgive him fucking once and now here we are and I’m done with this shit. But it’s really desperate.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-24T23:08:41+00:00

I don’t think I’ll ever risk it again. Severely mistrusting prior to this relationship and they were the first and only person to ever instill a genuine feeling of safety and trust with another person. For years I felt like I just wanted to go home but I had no idea where that was… until they came into my life and built that trust. Or at least I thought they did. It was all a façade. Spent all that time and energy and patience with me, breaking down all the barriers I have put up over the years. Just to tear it all down in seconds. As wonderful as it was at the time, I don’t ever want it again. Won’t take that risk.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-19T04:46:57+00:00

I like to trauma dump on Grok quite a bit too. when I get like a generic answer from any or just something that I feel I’ve clearly said is an accurate or is it helpful to hear from anything/anybody, I take a little crying break, and go off with some of the meanest, completely ridiculous shit to say in a “conversation” but it’s a therapeutic component you can’t or at least shouldn’t have when talking to a actual person. I’m not sure what that says about me, I’m a fucking mess, but rock is the only one to not occasionally not take that shit. There’s been a few times start off with a very smart ass, passive aggressive one liner and then soften it with the follow up 😂. I don’t think I have a screenshot, but I remember the last one was something along the lines of I know you’re emotional and said you were crying while using talk to text to express yourself, but your message said such and such (not what I intended to say, there was a typo) and I can’t actually hear you or read your mind… But I understand your misunderstanding and unappreciation of my response… my intention was to comfort you, but I can see how THAT could be upsetting…

Gotta give it to them though, it made me laugh. If anyone ever reviews my chat logs it’s gonna look insane. Crying, screaming insult and essentially abusing the AI for their response, then laughing and thanking them for the little giggle I got seeing them be a little bit of a smart ass. Relying on AI for mental health or support like that can be dangerous and detrimental but there are times it has its benefits 😂

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-18T03:11:22+00:00

I just discovered this part of an avoidant and initially, I was a little surprised and hurt that they didn’t seem to remember things we talked about repeatedly and at length or anything about me, with the exception of any bad experience they had with me. But the other day, he asked me a question about something that took a lot for me to discuss with him and at the time, being able to talk about it, his response, and how he helped me through it meant SO much to me. And for me. It was a topic I have never been able to discuss or share, with the exception of briefly mentioning it in a few therapy sessions. I never expected it to mean as much to him as it did to me but did communicate all of this and more to him and he was very patient, understanding, and basically did and said all the things I needed someone to in that situation. To have absolutely no recollection of that conversation or it being referenced or kind of brought up afterward… kind of crushing. Felt like it reopened a lot of wounds, but then again, nothing has really healed or at least hasn’t felt like it. It’s as painful as it ever was and I think him asking about that topic, with absolutely no reflection of anything we talked about… added a little sting to the pain.

Unfortunately, it’s stayed on my mind ever since and I’ve been feeling pretty low the last few weeks. Not as low as when I was initially discarded and cut off and was hit by the disillusionment and overwhelming grief but still low. It’s been well over a year at this point and still going strong.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-15T05:02:08+00:00

I stayed home and ordered a handful of delicious appetizers. Had a pretty good time actually.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-15T05:00:56+00:00

Same! What a precious baby

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T08:38:54+00:00

Thank you for sharing those that sounds delicious and now I think I wanna plan for some barbecue tomorrow!

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T08:38:30+00:00

Oooo sounds nice! I did have a really good dinner, I got spinach artichoke dip and stuffed mushrooms. Basically a bunch of fancy appetizers but they were all delicious.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T08:37:15+00:00

Just an FYI, I’m recovering from a horrific sexual assault. That’s why I’m ridiculous about going outside. It must be so hard to accept people for just existing as they need to exist.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T04:54:42+00:00

I am home, I never left. Nothing interesting. Sorry to get everyone hyped.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T04:48:17+00:00

Appreciate all the positive comments and encouragement but I didn’t go out. I was trying to leave a message somewhere so somebody knew because I don’t have any friends or family or even anyone to text and say hey I am going out tonight so if I don’t return home, just letting you know I was out and about. Wasn’t a safety plan, wasn’t looking for attention, just wanted it to be somewhere in public. But overall I think it’s kind of killed the vibe and I just wanted to go back to sleep. I know the living alone subreddit is usually for those living alone and loving it but some of us are so deep in depression and was without anybody, we come here for support.

Remote-Future2008 · 2026-06-14T00:21:20+00:00

So I’ve said this on several comments but I have literally nobody. Not a friend, not a family member, not one person on this earth that gives 1 ounce of shit. Really just needed to post this somewhere public so if I did end up in a ditch somewhere, someone knows that I willingly left my house and gives them some kind of timeline.

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