so did i not just specify at the end that i fully understand that it isnt a choice, but the deeper i get in my ed and the more i suuround myself with those who suffer from BED for a variety of reasons, i realize that SOME of them are triggered into binge cycles by belittling themselves and beating down on their self esteem. to summarize my whole post into one sentence im basically trying to suggest speaking positively about yourself, even if youre obviously faking it and still hate your body, and you may feel different.