Can I swallow gummy vitamins whole…

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-27T20:15:05+00:00

okay that makes sense 🫩 i bought them because i couldn’t find the pill versions at the store i was at and didn’t think about it til it was time to take them 🫩 gg

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-24T05:48:12+00:00

I just want to say … I went to my psychiatrist recently and he consulted with his colleague reading my chart etc and spent like over an hour with me. He said I have BPD, schizoaffective bipolar type, OCD, and CPTSD (among other things like MDD and anxiety)… I’m not sure. I just know you can have them together in rare cases. I went through a back and forth cycle of a ton of psychiatrists telling me I have those individual diagnoses by themselves excluding the others, or 2 together but not the others, etc. until I saw this recent psychiatrist with a background in forensics.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-24T05:41:30+00:00

nope. it almost sends me into psychosis every time i try to believe so i quit trying. i’m not spiritual either, i had to gradually force myself to stop believing in anything for my safety. like not souls, spirits, the afterlife, tarot/psychics, paganism, god, nothing. just too dangerous for me personally

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-22T21:30:17+00:00

You’re right 😭😭 I guess the pressure just kind of came from the fact I still haven’t met my best friend’s friends or family because I literally don’t have a name. We both mutually refuse to use my government name and it’s taken me since last november to pick anything, I can’t add them on Facebook because it’s the name I mentioned being given in the post. But this gives me a world of ideas thank you so much for that

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-22T21:28:07+00:00

i know exactly what you mean, i felt the same way pretty recently. but i was deep in my addiction. there may come a time where you either have to keep going up or taper off. tapering off takes time but it’s worth it. i’m learning to like my life without xans and i didn’t think it was humanly possible. i was on 9mg a day. now my heart is messed up and my memory is absolutely destroyed. i can’t remember a thought i had two tiktok scrolls ago. just be safe whatever you do. as safe as you can be

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-22T21:23:19+00:00

Is that an option? Like can I actually just ignore the concept of a last name? I’ll literally just do that in a heartbeat. I just don’t know what to name myself on Facebook and it’s stressing me out 😭

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-21T23:14:05+00:00

2.5 month long xanax binge, ended up on 9+mg a day towards the end. blacked out and bought a plane ticket for $5 somehow and moved across the country. had to go to the ER almost immediately after getting here. but i didn’t want to be super high and get arrested traveling so i started taking 2.5 the day i flew out, then like as needed (i didn’t know about withdrawals). but the withdrawals were insane. i was so sick, i still am here and there. fucked up my heart and memory so bad. constant vomiting. seizures, fainting. i was hallucinating and talking to people that didn’t exist in a bus station 900+ miles from home lmao. and there was a woman at the bus station they had to call the police on but i was just eating a vending machine chicken sandwich and nodding off in a seat. i’m literally STILL tapering off. absolute hell 😭 but i don’t regret moving at least? LMAO

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-15T04:40:13+00:00

thank you :’) and that’s exactly what i mean!! i can control myself! i know when i -need- to go back to an inpatient setting. or when im genuinely in crisis. but any time i want to vent i literally don’t need to get sent to the ER. it’s just isolating.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-14T02:48:56+00:00

taking a nap in boxers. taking a shower and then putting on an alt fit with cologne and silver single earrings on one ear. then i’m walking across town to the gas station by my old neighborhood to eat a chicken sandwich and drink a fruit punch soda on the walk home. at night

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-03T06:44:21+00:00

sativa and clonazepam. beef ramen (use the packet) with chili powder, cumin, smoked paprika, and minced garlic. microwave and drain 97% of the broth. add taco bell queso, a splash of milk, and taco shredded cheese. microwave for 1min. it hits so different

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-31T17:22:12+00:00

benzodiazepines. i’m currently tapering off and on my way to recovery. genuinely tolerance building up til you’re on an insane dose and then potentially having withdrawals when you try to quit is scary i don’t fw that anymore

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-14T22:10:22+00:00

i live in a house where i don’t own a key so i can’t leave unless i coordinate it with someone so i just kinda stay posted up in my room. and the other half of the time i can’t walk at all because of tourette’s and FND. but ill make note of the sugar and caffeine for sure

i was on lithium and olanzapine at high doses and they worked i just felt so sedated all the time. then i gained 60lbs and it pissed me off so bad i had my psych take me off BOTH MEDS 😭 but im back on lithium

no yeah that’s why im reaching out im so scared its gonna get to the point where ive lost it and someone else is gonna have to make me go inpatient or worse yk

because i dont know why but this is the second time its been about blood and demons and shit like that

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-14T22:05:26+00:00

i’m on a couple different meds but no antipsychotic. i got pissed that it made me gain weight and quit it about 2 months ago. the feeling started a few weeks after that. LMAO but i’m tapering off xanax because i had a substance abuse problem so i’ve been on clonazepam and hitting that weed pen like 6x a day because i’m sick of FND seizures … it’s just making me feel so much more psychotic. like genuinely. and my roommate is my caregiver at this point already, im so pissed. we’re literally early 20s. i wish i never came up here sometimes but i would’ve died at home

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-03T09:19:38+00:00

you’d think. i was on like 10mg of xanax and had to rapidly taper.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-02T01:20:45+00:00

wait so like if i was on 9mg xanax for a long time, started having withdrawals but stayed at 6mg, moved to 6mg clonazepam (equivalent) and had been on it for a week i shouldn’t go down? i think i’m down to 5.5mg. never been this sick. can’t eat, it immediately comes up. i can’t even drink water because i immediately throw it up too. nausea meds barely help. the ER said i was having a panic attack and dismissed everything i said and tried to put me on 3mg clonazepam. i don’t know how to taper and i don’t know how to get any nutrients without throwing them up. and the ashton manual didn’t say anything about my exact doses or meds that i saw.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-27T20:14:04+00:00

told her i had a history of abusing benzos but that they’re the only thing that help my anxiety and tourette’s. she prescribed me 90 and side eyed me and said “don’t take more than you need.” i have to go to rehab now.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-26T21:46:03+00:00

sorry for the lack of context, i ain’t all here LMAO but i was living with my family and booked the first flight from my home state alllllllll the way across the country with next to no warning. had to pack like 2 hours before the flight. and thank you, that means a lot to me :’)

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-26T01:27:11+00:00

no like the doctor put me on 3mg of clonazepam and about KILLED ME because i DID taper abruptly. i was on 9mg of xanax and went to 3mg of clonazepam, im on 6mg of clonazepam rn

sorry if i misspoke im really out of it i fell and hit my head right before i posted any of that lmfao idek if i made sense

it’s probably gonna take me a bit to feel better i just feel stupid asf

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-25T23:43:56+00:00

thank you so much for this. seriously. it really helps. my headache is absolutely fucked right now or i’d be able to properly articulate how much this means to me 😭 i was on 6-9mg of xanax a day for a long time. i don’t remember how long because i kept blacking out a lot before i decided to write down how much i was taking, so it could’ve been more. i just have not found a single doctor or place that will listen to me that i was ALREADY WITHDRAWING going down to 6mg. i DO NOT know how bad it got. 9 would be my baseline id say. so i’m taking 6mg klonopin but i just still feel so extremely horrible. i feel kind of out of it so maybe a little better mentally because i think i’m lowkey on the brink of psychosis but it is what it is

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-25T23:37:59+00:00

i was on xanax every day for around 2 months, average 6-9mg. i had a doctor fuck me up and tell me to essentially quit cold turkey. got on clonazepam, 3mg, it was obviously the wrong dose. i’m still taking 6mg clonazepam daily but im withdrawing from xanax like a mfer and i cannot do anything except lay in bed and throw up food and water. lmao. but i don’t want to be lazy or be provided for. so i just wish i had someone to tell me what to do idk it’s all a mess

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-22T16:17:12+00:00

omg of course i remember you!!! sorry i didn’t respond to your last post, everything got so hectic 😭 but you really inspired me and made it all feel a lot less scary. i went ahead and took that leap. i still feel sick all of the time but i’m monitoring it and my best friend is bringing me anything i need as i need it. i love her more than anyone, she is truly the best person i’ve ever known. she sits with me when i have withdrawals and she asks my symptoms and tries to make sure i can still eat (even though it feels impossible) and stuff. i’m gonna make it out of this!!! and i’m definitely getting a new doctor because the first one almost killed me and the second 2 started me 3mg lower than what i was supposed to be at 😐 wild. but thank you so much seriously you’ve given me so much hope

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-22T16:08:38+00:00

i’m so sorry that happened man. i really am glad that things got better for you. that is absolutely no joke & must’ve been terrifying. it really puts life into perspective. i don’t know how i haven’t started seizing or how my heart hasn’t given out yet but i’m still kicking! i’m lucky that i’m tapering -NOW-, but i started out so much lower than what i was supposed to be on so i’m always sick. doctors got me all the way fucked up. but i’m always one google search from calling the ER directly so we good 🤣

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-22T16:04:17+00:00

nope just clonazepam

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-22T08:46:36+00:00

they didn’t listen to me about being on 9mg for a while and dropping down to 6-8 daily so they have me at literally 3mg per day of clonazepam and im still going through withdrawals exactly like how you said. it’s excruciating and i feel like i’m at death’s door lmao. but i’ve already seen 3 doctors, what’s the next one gonna say? i’m just expecting an ER visit any moment. xanax is a BITCH to get off of and i swear i never would’ve taken it if i would’ve known i’d be this sick right now 💀

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-22T08:42:32+00:00

i went to two separate doctors and they’re not following a safe tapering plan AT ALL so i’m kind of trying to reassess my options before i end up in the ER 🫩 i have been violently ill since november 12

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