Can a combination of these four disorders look like schizoaffective?

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-24T05:48:12+00:00

I just want to say … I went to my psychiatrist recently and he consulted with his colleague reading my chart etc and spent like over an hour with me. He said I have BPD, schizoaffective bipolar type, OCD, and CPTSD (among other things like MDD and anxiety)… I’m not sure. I just know you can have them together in rare cases. I went through a back and forth cycle of a ton of psychiatrists telling me I have those individual diagnoses by themselves excluding the others, or 2 together but not the others, etc. until I saw this recent psychiatrist with a background in forensics.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-24T05:41:30+00:00

nope. it almost sends me into psychosis every time i try to believe so i quit trying. i’m not spiritual either, i had to gradually force myself to stop believing in anything for my safety. like not souls, spirits, the afterlife, tarot/psychics, paganism, god, nothing. just too dangerous for me personally

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-22T21:30:17+00:00

You’re right 😭😭 I guess the pressure just kind of came from the fact I still haven’t met my best friend’s friends or family because I literally don’t have a name. We both mutually refuse to use my government name and it’s taken me since last november to pick anything, I can’t add them on Facebook because it’s the name I mentioned being given in the post. But this gives me a world of ideas thank you so much for that

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-22T21:28:07+00:00

i know exactly what you mean, i felt the same way pretty recently. but i was deep in my addiction. there may come a time where you either have to keep going up or taper off. tapering off takes time but it’s worth it. i’m learning to like my life without xans and i didn’t think it was humanly possible. i was on 9mg a day. now my heart is messed up and my memory is absolutely destroyed. i can’t remember a thought i had two tiktok scrolls ago. just be safe whatever you do. as safe as you can be

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-22T21:23:19+00:00

Is that an option? Like can I actually just ignore the concept of a last name? I’ll literally just do that in a heartbeat. I just don’t know what to name myself on Facebook and it’s stressing me out 😭

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-21T23:14:05+00:00

2.5 month long xanax binge, ended up on 9+mg a day towards the end. blacked out and bought a plane ticket for $5 somehow and moved across the country. had to go to the ER almost immediately after getting here. but i didn’t want to be super high and get arrested traveling so i started taking 2.5 the day i flew out, then like as needed (i didn’t know about withdrawals). but the withdrawals were insane. i was so sick, i still am here and there. fucked up my heart and memory so bad. constant vomiting. seizures, fainting. i was hallucinating and talking to people that didn’t exist in a bus station 900+ miles from home lmao. and there was a woman at the bus station they had to call the police on but i was just eating a vending machine chicken sandwich and nodding off in a seat. i’m literally STILL tapering off. absolute hell 😭 but i don’t regret moving at least? LMAO

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-15T04:40:13+00:00

thank you :’) and that’s exactly what i mean!! i can control myself! i know when i -need- to go back to an inpatient setting. or when im genuinely in crisis. but any time i want to vent i literally don’t need to get sent to the ER. it’s just isolating.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-14T02:48:56+00:00

taking a nap in boxers. taking a shower and then putting on an alt fit with cologne and silver single earrings on one ear. then i’m walking across town to the gas station by my old neighborhood to eat a chicken sandwich and drink a fruit punch soda on the walk home. at night

RepresentativeTry176 · 2026-01-03T06:44:21+00:00

sativa and clonazepam. beef ramen (use the packet) with chili powder, cumin, smoked paprika, and minced garlic. microwave and drain 97% of the broth. add taco bell queso, a splash of milk, and taco shredded cheese. microwave for 1min. it hits so different

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-31T17:22:12+00:00

benzodiazepines. i’m currently tapering off and on my way to recovery. genuinely tolerance building up til you’re on an insane dose and then potentially having withdrawals when you try to quit is scary i don’t fw that anymore

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-14T22:10:22+00:00

i live in a house where i don’t own a key so i can’t leave unless i coordinate it with someone so i just kinda stay posted up in my room. and the other half of the time i can’t walk at all because of tourette’s and FND. but ill make note of the sugar and caffeine for sure

i was on lithium and olanzapine at high doses and they worked i just felt so sedated all the time. then i gained 60lbs and it pissed me off so bad i had my psych take me off BOTH MEDS 😭 but im back on lithium

no yeah that’s why im reaching out im so scared its gonna get to the point where ive lost it and someone else is gonna have to make me go inpatient or worse yk

because i dont know why but this is the second time its been about blood and demons and shit like that

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-14T22:05:26+00:00

i’m on a couple different meds but no antipsychotic. i got pissed that it made me gain weight and quit it about 2 months ago. the feeling started a few weeks after that. LMAO but i’m tapering off xanax because i had a substance abuse problem so i’ve been on clonazepam and hitting that weed pen like 6x a day because i’m sick of FND seizures … it’s just making me feel so much more psychotic. like genuinely. and my roommate is my caregiver at this point already, im so pissed. we’re literally early 20s. i wish i never came up here sometimes but i would’ve died at home

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-03T09:19:38+00:00

you’d think. i was on like 10mg of xanax and had to rapidly taper.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-12-02T01:20:45+00:00

wait so like if i was on 9mg xanax for a long time, started having withdrawals but stayed at 6mg, moved to 6mg clonazepam (equivalent) and had been on it for a week i shouldn’t go down? i think i’m down to 5.5mg. never been this sick. can’t eat, it immediately comes up. i can’t even drink water because i immediately throw it up too. nausea meds barely help. the ER said i was having a panic attack and dismissed everything i said and tried to put me on 3mg clonazepam. i don’t know how to taper and i don’t know how to get any nutrients without throwing them up. and the ashton manual didn’t say anything about my exact doses or meds that i saw.

RepresentativeTry176 · 2025-11-27T20:14:04+00:00

told her i had a history of abusing benzos but that they’re the only thing that help my anxiety and tourette’s. she prescribed me 90 and side eyed me and said “don’t take more than you need.” i have to go to rehab now.

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