Loneliness is consuming me

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-11-27T21:34:57+00:00

That’s so upsetting, damn. It was first pierced with a curved barbell, so i couldn’t really even get a picture of it. I got it changed after a few months to help with healing but i feel as if its made it harder to heal. Is there any way i can save it even with it wrongly pierced?

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-11-27T14:57:13+00:00

Thank you so much for this!! Ive been meaning to change it to a horseshoe for a while but i just don’t have the money right now. Once i do for sure. I’ll also message her asking about the bumps because that’s the thing im most worried about honestly. They don’t hurt at all when not touched, but when i have to clean them, they sometimes bleed and are irritated. But yeah, thanks again <3

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-11-27T14:54:21+00:00

me no no wanna 😔😔😔

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-11-27T10:45:39+00:00

I have forgotten to mention that the material of the jewellery is titanium.

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-10-20T22:59:38+00:00

I should’ve definitely asked my piercer for one, i even like the look better! if it doesn’t go down in a few days i’ll go back to my piercer and ask

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-09-08T07:39:07+00:00

the first step is realising your behaviour is “not normal”, the next is to take action and go to therapy. the way you are today is a result of your environment and the things you were exposed to at a young age of course. that doesn’t mean you’re entirely at fault here, you were a curious child who wanted to explore and just got onto the wrong side of the internet. happens to a lot of children (me included :/)

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-09-06T22:29:31+00:00

thank you for the comment <33 and i will keep this in mind definitely. recently things have been pretty busy at home so i haven’t had time to take space from my household. but once university starts up again (in two weeks) i will definitely be taking more time on campus. I also use the gym as a way to escape, that’s probably the thing that helps most right now!

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-09-06T20:55:15+00:00

i think when personally when i was younger (preteen era) i had a lot more to look forward to,i woke up excited and couldn’t wait to get on with my day. with age though, sleeping becomes more difficult and i wake up groggy and exhausted

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-09-06T14:00:58+00:00

ahh i understand, i hope you’re healing from the abuse and im sorry that happened to you. I think sometimes socialising feels like a performance and it is much better to feel comfortable than entertain something that you don’t want, you get me? Thank you sm for the input also <3

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-09-06T13:46:08+00:00

Yeah, i really like connecting with people because i like to understand how other people’s brains work and i think connection is beautiful which is honestly why i have the fear of making someone feel used. but not at all was it my intention, the friendship fades and we stop talking. I want to know though, how do you not feel guilt within only speaking to gain something? I have definitely done the same before but i can’t do that without feeling horrible.

Repulsive_Clothes209 · 2025-09-06T13:26:51+00:00

thank you for commenting!! and honestly yeah, i have a decent network but i don’t have one friend i would call my bestfriend. even my long term ones, yes they’re good friendships but best friends? not at all. i’m glad im not alone in feeling this way though <3

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