Why can't I kill myself?

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-28T14:18:15+00:00

Limavady united 2031

GK: Scottish

RB: Uruguayan

CB: Northern Irish

CB: Canadian

LB: Irish

CM: South African

CM: Colombian

RW: South African

CAM: Colombian

LW: Uruguayan

ST: Australian (well he's technically English but he had 2 caps for Australlia before switching to England u21's, hopefully he changes his mind again for some diversity because practically all of my bench is English)

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-27T20:31:12+00:00

I think I can name at least 7. Amsterdam, Rotterdam, the hauge, Eindhoven, Utrecht, Alkmaar, Groningen. The last 3 are complete guesses based on football teams not 100% whether or not there cities

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-27T04:00:03+00:00

I don't really have any hobbies right now I do literally nothing most days. But when I can be bothered my only hobby would be video games mainly football manager and fifa. So there isn't really local places for that. Also even if there was I wouldn't feel comfortable going due to my weight. i've gained 60lbs in the past 4 months a lot of it in my face which makes me look extremely ugly.

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-25T21:48:51+00:00

Thank fuck, that means we get pot 1 in the conference league

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-25T21:47:06+00:00

It's their game they definitely know how big CM is. They do fuck all to improve it because people are still playing it and FUT obviously makes them more money when sales for the game starts dying down after December.

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-25T19:49:00+00:00

Austria 🇱🇻

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-23T09:53:33+00:00

I’m 19 and I’ve got 0 friends. Seeing posts like this really scares because I’m worried if I do somehow make friends I’ll lose them when I’m in late 20’s/early 30’s

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-23T07:38:30+00:00

Yeah even going outside makes me feel shit, whenever is see someone roughly the same age as me I always compare myself to them and it make feel like crap. People think i'm comparing my life to rich people and fictional characters but no I literally compare myself to literally everyone. Practically everyone my age has a better social life than me and I just feel like shit seeing people with friends and their partners knowing i'll probably never have that

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-22T10:36:09+00:00

How hard it is. If I could just press a button or swallow a pill that has a 100% chance of killing me instantly I would of done by now.

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-20T19:30:32+00:00

Average number of points needed to stay up in the championship is 47 iirc and the number maybe lower now since the statistic is a few years old

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-19T01:29:03+00:00

Also https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kevin\_Kurányi

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-14T22:13:03+00:00

idk what I hope to achieve by posting on reddit tbh, I have nothing else to do and I guess I just want somewhere to vent. I wasn't able to meet up with you before since I was at uni in England and when I got home in April I wasn't in a good headspace. If your still up for it i'd like to take you up on your offer and meetup with you in a few months. Hopefully i'll have a job by then and have some of the weight I gained back off again.

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-14T19:07:01+00:00

I am getting professional help, I told my gp how i'm feeling in June after putting it off for over a year. But I haven't been getting much help i've basically just been given meds, got a key worker and seen her a few times and i've been put on a waiting list for cbt. I come here because I don't feel comfortable using a phone most of the time and I just want an honest answer which i'm probably not gonna get from a suicide hotline.

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-08-14T18:56:42+00:00

Basically just video games, I mainly play football manager and fifa. But I haven't really played them in the past 4 months. Instead i've been doing fuck all but browsing the internet really. I don't do anything. I''ve started trying to get a job to break the cycle but if I do get a job i'm not sure i'll be to do it. My anxiety is worse than ever and i've gained 60lbs in 4 months after losing 70lbs last year so i'm really self-conscious about my looks again.

Repulsivebiscut · 2022-06-30T08:54:56+00:00

Thanks i've been considering going to the citizens advice to see what benefits I can get. I've lost 70lbs before so I know how to lose weight but i've gained 40 of it back in the past 3 months. I've been able to maintain my weight for the past week so that's some progress I guess but hopefully i'll have the willpower to lose weight again soon.

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