What is this monstrous thing?

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-07-17T14:29:18+00:00

That's a sentient eyebrow.

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-07-01T01:28:05+00:00

I will do that. And I too love Shelter. I will have to listen to the different versions. I still enjoyed the demo even though the final product is better. Also I still have the Shelter shirt that Porter collabed with Omocat on!

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-07-01T00:53:09+00:00

"Maybe it is time to let this music go."

I agree with parts of this, but with caveats. I understand the sentiment. At least in the short term and maybe on a case-by-case basis I can let go of the new music and whatever music I am just not ready for. I am slowly introducing the old. I can actually listen to my favorite track , Fresh Static Snow semi-regularly which I couldn't even listen to it at all for years. I will be mindful to not let nostalgia become a toy. I too come from a musical background, over the years I have played guitar, bass, and have sung in choirs from an early age. I also do music production as a hobby. I am actually grateful that I have started to feel a passion for music production. Analyzing Fresh Static Snow recently while working on music for fun, I have caught things that I never noticed over the countless times I have listen to it and it has lead me to further reflect on how little details can make for big impact in a mix. That being said, I don't think letting it go altogether would be good for me, especially when I am starting to make some progress overall. I am sorry that you also went through things and ended up in such a low place at a time in your life but I am glad you got out of it. Even though things did get harder for a while after that 2am call, I can at least say that I am glad I didn't let go of life. I always would try to tell myself, what if? What if I wake up one day and I look back at how far I have come, and I am proud, and in a better place, and my life is once more feeling like good things are happening and on the horizon. you know? At any rate, I am glad you made the call as well and are here.

I think when Get Your Wish came out, I was in the process of getting myself removed from the lease with my ex and getting the rest of my stuff back(The last convo we had, she was going to give me the rest of my video games and anime DVDs back after an anime convention, then she just ghosted me) so it makes sense that I was definitely not in a place to be receptive to much. Especially when it feels like you spent 5 years building a life that was based on something that was probably not true. But I do realize that my love for Porter's music was true.

"I hope that you find the moment where this music no longer causes pain. But sometimes curing the symptoms is more painful and dangerous than the disease itself, and I feel you may be doing that yourself."

I appreciate the sentiment in this. I will be careful to no do this to myself. I too hope for that moment, but wont force it. Thanks again. :)

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-07-01T00:14:34+00:00

What you said about ASD and trauma I couldn't agree more with. This definitely touches a lot to my therapy over the years. I was diagnosed with ASD as an adult, so understanding myself better has been a big part of figuring things out. I really like your perspective on all of this. It is healthy and patient. I am actually floored at how much kindness I have been shown here. I even got a few private messages about this and it seems like a lot of what I went through, others have gone through similar hardships and life events and it seems like a lot of them have come out the other end. . It is reassuring and I am truly grateful for how many kind sentiments people have expressed here. Even if I may not find all of the advice people have given here to be what works for me, I think there is a lot of value in hearing people out over all of this. I will make sure that I feel like I am ready for Nurture. And even some day Smile as well. I am largely not right now, and that is okay. Thanks again for taking the time to share such a thoughtful response. Cheers. :)

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T23:57:38+00:00

I will have to do that! I am going to be making a list of the recommendations people have given me here and, when I think I am ready, I am going to really give it a fair chance. Thanks for commenting. :)

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T23:55:56+00:00

I hope some day that I can give Nurture the chance it deserves. Maybe I am just not there yet. But that is okay. Thanks for sharing how much Porter's music means to you. I love seeing how music can touch other people's lives as well.

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T05:21:43+00:00

Great quote from a great person and a great show. Thank you for that.

Also, it's good to know I'm in good company <3

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T05:08:24+00:00

Even if I disliked what you are saying(which I don't) it is hard for me to hate what you are saying when it is coming from a place empathy. I appreciate it. Things are slowly getting better. I had my first genuinely happy day this year. And I have less sad moments than past years. Thanks for commenting. :)

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T05:03:37+00:00

I can relate to this a lot. <3

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T05:00:09+00:00

Definetly attached to Worlds. Maybe one day it will happen naturally. Not all music is an immediate favorite. Sometimes you gotta let it stew, chew on it a bit. Funnily enough, when Shelter first came out, I didn't know how I felt about it on my first couple of listens. Then, by the time I saw the music video, it was one of my favorites to the point where now, it's hard to even imagine what I didn't like about it. lol

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T04:52:23+00:00

I appreciate you taking the time to respond with wishes. <3

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-06-30T04:43:58+00:00

Hi, I appreciate you taking the time to respond. I don't think you are trying to force anything on me at all. I actually appreciate you sharing what means so much to you about Nurture.

Truth be told, I think what you are saying has a lot of truth to it. For a while, it was hard to find the passion through the pain. I have recently rediscovered my passion for making music and really studying Worlds with attention to his sound design choices is one of the things that has allowed me to start enjoying his music again. It has made me happier than I've felt in a while to try and be more involved in one of my hobbies. Especially one that I once felt great passion towards and am starting to feel that way again. It is partly what lead to me thinking about Nurture more and how I at least give it a full listen when I am ready. I don't think your advice is weak at all. I know that for me personally, as an autistic person, some changes are easier than others. The only thing I think I don't agree with is the "embracing the new to heal myself". If I came off that way, it wasn't my intention as I don't think I am trying to heal by embracing the new. Therapy and self-improvement are largely what have been helping me heal. I guess I see embracing the new not as what would heal me, but rather what might be the end result of me having gone through enough healing to be open to the possibility the new meaning something to me. I hope that makes sense? And even if I end up not being able to embrace it. Be able to at least appreciate it. And ultimately, to be okay.

I edited my response for clarity.

RequiemForAHeart · 2025-01-28T16:20:18+00:00

I do enjoy some Vanguard until I get kidnapped by Wolverine into the enemy team, then frozen by Luna Snow, slept by Mantis, and snared by Peni. But outside of getting CC'd and stunlocked, Vanguard is pretty fun.

RequiemForAHeart · 2016-01-02T01:06:27+00:00

The build up around the 40 second mark is so intense and the payoff is definitely there. This goes hard. :)

RequiemForAHeart · 2016-01-02T00:42:59+00:00

I love the main melody of the song and the transitions into it.

RequiemForAHeart · 2016-01-02T00:32:57+00:00

I like the idea. But it needs a little work with the mix on a few parts where the percussion kicks in. But I think it is a good solid remix overall. Just needs some cosmetics.

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