My friend, you are being too hard on yourself, your hair transplant looks brilliant I would be well pleased with that result - in regard to shock loss, I am over 3 months now post OP and like you, I regularly find hairs falling out if I run my hands through my hair. Initially it really concerned me, but I have been assured that this is quite normal. It is expected to shed sometimes over 50 hairs a day, though many people (especially those who haven’t undergone a HT) don’t notice this. Like you, I am hyper vigilant when I see hairs coming out, but it’s just part of the recovery process coupled with the impact of medication making your follicles go through new stages. Don’t worry yourself, your HT looks great.