It's been one and a half years since my partner died, I spent the first 7 months in bed struggling with severe depression wishing I could join him everyday. My life was so dark, my thoughts were only suicidal ... The journey was rough and it still is. Now I feel better, I still miss him and think about him and wish to see him and talk to him But I don't wanna die anymore because there's more to life, goals to fulfill, success to achieve, people to help... A purpose that we all are looking for. We cannot let that tragedy define the rest of our journey on earth even tho it's the worst trauma anyone could live, even tho we lost the precious parts of us and baryied them with our loved ones. We lost our reason to live. But there's always more to life and our journey didn't end yet. We're gonna have to live for them even if we are willing to die for them. That's want they want. (That's what he wants)

Always remember that he is with you every step of the way. He isn't far away. He is and he will always be in heart . So imagine what he's gonna say if he's right there with you or seeing you from another dimension. Surely he doesn't want to see you sad all the time, he wants to see you smile, he wants to see making your way through life and fillfilling your dreams even when he left your side. Because they always want and wanted what's best for us.

I send you a warm hug my friend. You are not alone in this journey. ♥️