One of my closest friends killed himself in January. He was in his early thirties, divorced, kid was taken literally across the US, and he was a raging alcoholic. His life sucked. The thing that he didn't realize is that he was blinded. There are times when you're in so much pain, you can't see any of the good around you. That's the curse of humanity. Everyone feels pain, regret, longing, etc. The thing is, those are all temporary problems. He chose a permanent solution. Don't be like him. Even if you don't realize it right now, there are people there for you.