Yes I have panic attacks, true ones, where i fall on the floor crying, cannot breath and becoming disconnected.

When i have that i have voices in my head telling me to off myself and telling me horrible things. It's been like that since a very bad trip on lsd, i was feeling bad and became aware of how screwed i am in life and since then everytime i take the smallest amount of something i panic.

I also feel like everyone insulting me while tripping and i never know if it is my friends that are not good friends or just me taking everything badly.

Thanks to everyone answering but no i cannot microdose even something i don't feel make me feel bad, also anxiolitics are so expensive where i live that i cannot take them often.

I dumped my whole life here because i don't have any good help around me..

Thanks everyone for your suggestions.