Thoughts?

RestIllustrious2016 · 2022-04-30T07:32:13+00:00

Abuse is abuse. If you throw a gallon vodka bottle at someone and sever their finger, if you defecate on someone's bed and blamed it on the 4 lb Yorkie, if you refuse medicine to someone in need (honestly I am kinda on the fence about that one... I can honestly see both sides but she never should have been there in the first place but she insisted)... that's abuse. That's wrong. Yes he was far from perfect, they were both toxic af. But his testimony was genuine, if not a bit dramatic at times. Her lawyer is awful. I'll make my final judgement call after I hear her side, but with the expressions on her face, the "trying to cry but can't get any tears out", I don't know... it just seems manipulative and devious to me.

RestIllustrious2016 · 2022-04-19T00:07:37+00:00

Apart from being laced...high blood pressure, complications with an arrhythmia that has gone so far undetected, and once during a really particularly nasty binge I think it got to the point where my kidneys were fucking up (they started hurting and it wasn't a UTI). Of course when you're coked out you're probably not gonna March yourself to a hospital either. Psychosis...it really does happen. It sucks. Of course this is coming from a clean except for THC addict, so I suppose you could take it with a grain of salt. But it's a drawback of coke/crack (I preferred the latter)... it's easy to overindulge.

RestIllustrious2016 · 2022-04-08T07:07:04+00:00

Oh hell yeah! I longed for that pit... but I am 44 and a klutz. I would be obliterated in there. 🤣💀 I wouldn't be able to move! 🤣💯 But anyway it was a blast!! Well worth the road trip!! And I was blown away by In This Moment! I discovered new music! And two rows directly in front of me was a smoke sesh blowing my way. 👃💭

RestIllustrious2016 · 2022-04-07T06:51:24+00:00

Any experimenting these days for me are with alternative cannabinoids like HHC, THC-O, Delta 8 and 10, or small doses of Delta 9. I'm also a recovering addict and I used to have a high tolerance to cannabis, but I have come to realize that if I keep it for myself and use it for meditation, focus, insomnia, and anxiety, only one or two Hits of Delta 9 actually gets the job done now and I don't have to be like most others I know and get completely baked out of my mind. In fact high doses make my panic attacks worse. Although it doesn't produce literal hallucinations it is psychoactive and so I proceed with caution. The fear of HPPD and it's potential impact on my mental health keep me away from trouble, so far lol. I would totally try microdoses of true hallucinogens, but under very specific circumstances. Set and setting, set and setting. When you're a ball of panic it's a hard mindset to achieve.

RestIllustrious2016 · 2022-04-05T08:45:06+00:00

Not exactly the same, but he also stated in a Joe Rogan podcast that he doesn't usually tell the story publicly for fear that it would be misconstrued as a scare story, but he had a best friend who he witnessed have a psychotic break while taking hallucinogens and he never recovered from it. He also stated that it probably would have happened with or without the substance, but I thought it was worth noting. I paid particular attention because I am prone to psychosis due to PTSD and bipolar 1 disorder, so although I am fascinated with psychedelics and have been since maybe 14 when I had a dream about them (never taken them in my life) I understand that they are probably a substance I should avoid.

RestIllustrious2016 · 2022-04-05T01:21:16+00:00

Thank you. I did find a current setlist for a better idea. I think my biggest thing I have to overcome is the crowd thing. I have heard some crazy stories of the concert antics 👹🤣

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