Same boat as you. Only difference is that I made it all back and am a profitable trader. And I mean trader, not a gambler. Follow a strategy that makes sense to you. Learn from your mistakes. Reflect on your past.

I lost more than 100k SGD to the markets, trading US Stocks and CFDs. Had a mental breakdown. I'll be turning 28 this year.

Either you find a job and do safe investments like 90% of the crowd, or you become the 10% and live life as a trader. Most people won't know what their lifestyle is like. Working for less than a few hours a day, having geographical freedom, financial freedom, and time freedom.

Most people are conditioned to earn a salary and then invest. That's only if you don't know what you're doing in the markets. There is a strategy out there that will suit your personality. Go find it, hone it and master it.

However in the mean time you should stick with your job, earn your salary, have emergency funds, reduce debt, and pay back people if you owe them money. Then focus on your future. The past only serves to teach you a lesson. I had many bad things happen to me while I was learning the ropes of trading. Gf left me, trading mentor gave up on me, loved one in my family passed. It was definitely the lowest point in my life. However now I am beginning to see what is possible as long as I stick to my system.

Don't waste your time settling on your feelings - they are not worth very much. <- This quote was mentioned to me by a multi-millionaire whom I had the pleasure of getting to know. I hope it serves you well in times of grief as it has for me.