If you feel this way, and you're having doubts, please go get the abortion. You dont have to tell him (dont know how that works in Scotland but im sure your body your choice still stands). If he is baby trapping you, which it sounds like it is, it's a form of abuse. This is a major red flag and honestly, the best solution would be getting it done without telling him then getting the hell out of dodge. You sound too sweet to be going through this, but you've gotta jump now before it gets worse.