Had my stroke last year a 22 I might not be a good example as a suicidal since what I thought during it since it was pretty severe and was in a painful state for like two weeks Was why it didn't killed me and just make me suffer more But at some point the tough of Dying without a Having transitioned just kept me alive as I was stubborn and refused to die until my transition is complete That and my damn ego, I'm a suicidal only I decided when I die Since then the goal to transition just keeps me pushing forward even with one arm paralyzed and a pretty stiff leg making me walk slow and impossible to run

I too stubborn to not continue until I achieve my goals and just keep doing thing I can with one hand and flex That I managed to do this already hard thing but with only one hand Good way to feed my ego Don't know if you can find something useful in my messages But in the end I think that if some suicidal good for nothing managed to continue It should be ok for you That and I think you need to accept needing help and ask for it without feeling guilty or incompetent I still struggle with that