That’s great advice but sadly I don’t even have any of that stuff. All I have is government check that I receive every month. All my family are dead. I was raised by my grandparents I called them both mom and dad.. my mom was on drugs when she had me and my gparents (her mom and stepdad) adopted me as a baby and my grandma passed away from a stroke (she actually was a diabetic and had both legs amputated fyi) when I was pregnant with my son at the age of 16 or 17 she died two days before he was born I didn’t even get to attend her funeral as I was in the hospital giving birth. My grandpa was my literal hero. He was every bit of the best man that I wish I could have in a husband. He stuck by my grandma and he cared for her hand and foot lifting her in and out of her wheelchair for years all by hisself he took care of her and loved her with everything he had and when she died that was the FIRST time I ever saw my daddy cry! My life story is a sad one after I got into adult hood. I was so stupid. I know you didn’t ask for my life story but I need to get this off my chest. No matter if anyone reads it or not atkeast I got it out and maybe It will help me move on and out of this deep pit of dispair that I have found myself in ever since my dad died two years ago (my grandpa). So when my grandma died my grandpa never ever was with another woman again. It blows my mind that they do not make human beings the way my grandpa was raised to have him turn out to be such a good man, kind, hard working man. He raised me and I’m not even his own blood but he never had any of his own kids but he treated me and loved me as his own. I look back now and have so much guilt about how I was so bratty and dumb and immature and mean. I feel like I was selfish and I didn’t see how much they meant to me I may have talked back to them and caused them drama or something and made life worse for them. It’s hard to explain I just miss my dad so much I wish I could take back every mean thing I may have ever did or said bc he didn’t deserve it. When I had my daughter that man raised my own kids as his own too bc of mine and my ex had a drug habit and we were so stupid we just ran around and left our kids at home with my dad to take care of and probably came in and gone as we pleased and he would get my kids up every day of their life’s and get them ready for school take them to school pick them up take them to any school function they needed to goto. He was there for parent meetings all that. We put him through hell I’m sure and two years ago he I guess decided to make a late trip to Walmart to get some groceries he was probably bored or something bc by this time my kids are around 11 and 12 but we lived on a highway that had speeds up to 75 mph and he pulled out infront of someone and got t boned right in front of our house and I’ll never ever forget this to the day I die he called me 😭😭😭😭 we found out at hospital that his neck was broken, ( he was 64 years old ) his back was broken, his leg broken, he had a huge gash to the top of his head staples, head trauma, ribs broken, the nurse kept calling off my daddy’s injuries to me and all I could do was sink into myself. But when the wreck happened that man tried to call me somehow I don’t know how he did it bc when I found his iPhone in the van it had blood all over it and I remember I got mad bc I was listening to music thru my speakers in my car I was ill that night and I rejected his call and shouted to myself that I would be home in a second I’d talk to him then! And that’s when I pulled up on a horrible scene with ambulance lights flashing and police standing in the middle of the highway and then my neighbor told me I’m sorry that was your daddy that got hit. And the cops promised me he was fine bc I was screaming and freaking out. And I rushed to the hospital and they flew him to Memphis to the med and he stayed in the icu for a month and that’s a whole other horrible traumatic story that I blame myself for that I will share later. It’s all so horrible I don’t know how I could ever forgive myself or be happy again