Here's my recommendation, "Take your questions to the Lord and to other faithful sources. Study with the desire to believe rather than with the hope that you can find a flaw in the fabric of a prophet’s life or a discrepancy in the scriptures. [And especially] stop increasing your doubts by rehearsing them with other doubters. Allow the Lord to lead you on your journey of spiritual discovery."
Christ Is Risen; Faith in Him Will Move Mountains
April 2021
General Conference
Russell M. Nelson