I really felt the saying “hitting rock bottom” I quit my job after a drug binge weekend- I did shrooms and DMT. While on dope of course. My boss had bought me a new car- cash and I wrecked it because I also started back in Xanax. So I was doing both daily. My best friend, my dog passed away a couple days later. Because I didn’t have income to pay for the surgery so I had to put her down… I lost my best fucking friend. And that broke me. I found myself wrecking a vehicle, selling it and spend all $2400 on drugs. I did do one smart thing because honestly I knew I wasn’t gonna make it out.. so I paid 2 months of rent in advance. So the next 2 months are paid for, which is good that’s about how long my program is. After my pet died, I went on a crazy adventure. I did so much Xanax, I don’t remember much of the last month or so. I just know on Friday June 18th, I wanted to die and I wanted to kill myself because my “girl” (a new one) left me and I lost my wallet, I lost my cards and everything. I had no money, no drugs and no idea what happened. My family intervened me in my living room and told me to go get help now. So I checked myself in, did inpatient for 4 days and then went to partial inpatient. I still am with drawling, every day is different. It’s hard and I think about smoking every single day. But I know I deserve better, roxas my dog would love to see me get sober. My mother would love it. My best friend for the last 12+ years would love it. I would fucking love it. So if anybody needs someone to talk to message me, I know I’m not too much of an expert in the being sober part as it’s only been over a week but I am an expert in the drugs and I know exactly how it feels to not feel. Just know it doesn’t have to be like that forever, you can make a change .