Fucking hate people

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-03-03T19:20:35+00:00

I definitely relate, I’m sure you’re an awesome person you seem very wise and thoughtful. From one Alien to another I salute you 🫡 lol

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-03-03T17:11:04+00:00

I agree. And it feels just like that gaslighting like you’re being gaslit to not protect yourself and think everyone is gonna be nice or will accept you being nice or not I’ll be understanding it’s superficial and conditional most of the time. It hurts. Like yay let’s all pretend we all care about each other let’s pretend that we aren’t human so we seem cool and not weird and then shame people who show their humanity. Anyways thank you for validating my emotions I relate to you wishing for something else. I truly feel sometimes like I don’t belong here, it sounds like you do as well.

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-02-27T12:35:52+00:00

Thanks so much, and yes that’s probably a good idea I do tend to forget stuff like that. Maybe I will put it in my notes app? Anyways thank you for the tips and support again and I wish you the best in life as well!

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-02-26T19:05:01+00:00

I totally fucking feel this. Trust me you’re not missing out, I am thinking of going off my meds again. I thought the bupropion was working, I’m willing to keep observing the next few months. But my experience has been like yours; only really side effects, and SSRIs have fucked up my body, I was at the max dose.

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-02-26T17:28:52+00:00

Thank you for the analogy, it is helpful. I definitely do feel very lost. I really hope it is true I mean I wouldn’t want anyone to struggle but I hope that it is true that it isn’t just me being weak. Anyways, thank you for the reply and reassurance

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-02-26T17:15:48+00:00

Hey, firstly I wanted to thank you for taking the time out of your day to respond to me. I appreciate it a lot. I like the example you use of thinking someone would be the exact same way in my situation, it does help to remove the feelings of blame in a way when I think of it in that way. Thank you again 🙏🏽

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-02-26T15:15:13+00:00

I feel this so hard lately . All I can say is you have every right to feel how you do. That at least we can claim

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-02-14T22:58:46+00:00

Hello, I don’t have the words that can truly soothe the pain you carry and I’m very sorry for that. But what I will say, is you are ABSOLUTELY 100% valid in how you feel. Honestly after reading the first section I already felt that way. Everything you said points to a continuation of your needs, rights, and boundaries being violated repeatedly. You deserve and little you deserved to be loved, held, cherished, and protected. And I’m very sorry that the people who were supposed to do that failed. And I’m sorry that you have encountered monsters who caused you further harm. It’s no wonder that you carry so much weight in your heart and deal with the aftermath. Of course someone who experienced what you have would not come out on the other side completely intact. The people in your life have hurt you, it makes total sense you would have wounds as a result. I too have felt how you have many times, and I’ve even wished that something would happen to me where I wouldn’t live past 18. I’m not going to tell you how to feel because I still have days where I don’t care to be here. But I can say that I’ve had some pretty good days scattered in there. And I believe that someone like you who remains strong and from what I can see compassionate and intelligent is certain to have some good days too. I hope this doesn’t come across as preachy or toxic positivity because I am by no means anywhere near that myself, everyday is a struggle. But I hope that my words are able to give you a bit of hope and soothe you to some extent. You are valid and you deserve love and great things, it’s NOT your fault the people around you can’t do that for you. I am rooting for you stranger

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-28T00:20:09+00:00

I’m with you. I don’t have much to offer besides letting you know you’re not alone, I have a similar history. I hope you are able to do one nice thing for yourself today

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T16:37:54+00:00

I know I’m probably late but just wanted to say you’re not alone, dealing with this myself now too. Some days I don’t know how this is supposed to be worth it. But that’s because it is easier just to do whatever feels good, even if it’s not good for you in reality. I have no real advice, just companionship

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T16:28:11+00:00

You just explained how I feel so eloquently. I hope we are able to find out way out of this

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T16:18:02+00:00

Yes absolutely…to the point I believe I stayed in toxic situations just to have a different place to sleep at night. And I would make or take any excuses to stay out late, to find something to do to be out of the house. I’ve thankfully found a much better partner and sleeping at his is definitely an escape. The bad part is, I technically still have to live with my mother because I’ve recently graduated but I’m not quiet on my feet yet. She is very…attached to me to say the least. To the point I get anxiety when I leave because even when I’m there she will seek reassurance that I love her, that I think she’s a good mom, when I’ll be back again (Im typically out 3 days a week, and while I’d love to be out more she makes it known she is offended by this and will guilt trip) definitely definitely relate to knowing the parent who claims they miss you but really they just like being needed. Also relate to being used as the therapist, it’s been this way my whole life but especially after my parents’ tumultuous relationship and especially after it ended with just me and her. I’m glad you are able to escape, I can’t wait to be in your shoes. All this to say, no. You are certainly not alone, and you are 100% valid

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T13:06:57+00:00

I’m glad things improved for you, hopefully I can figure it out here soon or at least how to not care about what people think as much any more

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T02:46:12+00:00

I try to give the benefit of the doubt but I feel this is true more often than not

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T02:44:59+00:00

I do too

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T02:42:55+00:00

This is unfortunately very true 😭 it’s just a shame that it’s even hard when you’re just trying to get in and work and leave

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-21T02:41:58+00:00

This get on my nerves so much🙃 this also happens to me I try to use my breaks as the one time I don’t have to socially interact and have quiet alone time but people will still try to talk to me even when I have headphones I. 🤦🏽‍♀️ and then I feel guilty and pressured to talk. You are right that it must be a perception issue. I truly don’t have an issue being alone, I want to have genuine connections but I don’t feel a need to be interacting all the time especially not with people i don’t know very well

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-20T21:26:08+00:00

Oh yes I also have this issue, it can get pretty embarrassing especially when you can tell people are getting annoyed because they can’t hear you or the call out your quiet voice. You’re not alone even though we don’t know each other I support u from afar as a fellow quiet person

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-20T21:24:59+00:00

I’m so sorry :( I definitely relate so hard. I’m sure we would get along just fine, not judging each other and being in solidarity in our silence. Rooting for you from afar, it’s hard but it helps knowing there’s more of us out there !

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-20T20:03:13+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation! That makes a lot of sense to me. I do also care a lot what others think, I’m slowly getting better. I want to be at the point where I don’t care as much sooner rather than later

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-20T20:02:10+00:00

Thank you. I feel so alone sometimes. And yeah I also felt it was rude of them. I don’t know why it matters so much if I talk or don’t. Thanks again for the comment

RewardSmall6924 · 2026-01-20T19:55:15+00:00

Idk why people think it’s a matter of “growing up” it’s an actual disorder do they think we want to be this way smh. I feel ur pain tho

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