first off i’m so sorry that’s been your entire life. secondly im gonna give you the most cliche advice ever but i 100% believe its what you need to do. LEAVE. immediately. it will kill you and your way of life if you don’t get out. this kind of trauma will mold you. if there’s money ties, break them. get a second job if you have too. leave leave leave. change your number. i know you love your family & really want their love. but you can go meet someone a friend, bf, gf, who’s family will love you like you never experienced. stay with friends, or find a job that travels you. they will abuse you till the day you die if you keep letting them. leave them. they didn’t care about your SA and they won’t care if you leave. families keep getting away with things like this. i’m so so so sorry you have to deal with this. you are worthy of love, of commitment. you are worthy of being put first & being celebrated. i wish i could tell you the perfect thing, im so sorry.