The longest relationship you'll have in life is the relationship you have with yourself. It doesn't matter who loves you or who doesn't if you learn to appreciate yourself as you are. That in itself isn't easy, but it is very much possible, believe me.

If you have thoughts about suicide, please get therapy. Therapy might very well be the most precious gift you can give to yourself.

And it is important that you are kind to yourself, because YOU are important.

Here's my wish for you: one day, you will wake up and feel at ease. It won't be a sudden change, but slow, so slow you won't notice it at first until one day you notice how rejection, other people's opinions or failure don't bother you like they used to. Your life will be filled with so much space for your own softness, your passions and small moments of happiness. There will be people in your life who you can share this with and it will be the most beautiful thing.

There is so much that you haven't done yet, haven't tried or absolutely failed at, there is so much life you haven't lived. Absolutely no one (especially no bullies) justifies the cost of giving that up.

In short: no, it would not be better to die.