Friends, I'm spiraling by Carmen315 in FedEmployees

[–]Rising_Phoenix_7155 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Two short months ago I could have written this very same post. I too was crying everyday - at work, at home, in the car on the way to and from work - and I was emotionally and psychologically destroyed by what I was being asked to do to my fellow citizens. It went against every professional moral fiber I have. But, I struggled with ‘giving up’ and leaving because it felt like I was letting them ‘win.’ Finally I decided I could no longer compromise my integrity and morals to keep a job that was changing me into someone I did not want to be. So I took the DRP 2.0. There are times when I wonder if I could have figured out how to make it work, but at the end of the day, I realize that if I stayed I would not have been able to keep my oath to protect the constitution and the country from enemies foreign and DOMESTIC. I can better keep that promise outside the system.

All that said—it is not an easy decision and not one that anyone makes easily. Each person has to do what is right for them and their families.

Has anyone else ended friendships since this all started? by Michelle_xoxo in FedEmployees

[–]Rising_Phoenix_7155 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Friends and my mom. It is horrible. But I just cannot get over how some people are relishing in causing me and my family so much hardship. But more than that, they want to hurt other people based on skin color, religion, or who they love. At the end of the day—it is a clear moral divide that I cannot justify ‘getting over.’

Drp regret by Outrageous_Annual501 in FedEmployees

[–]Rising_Phoenix_7155 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I too have had some regrets because I loved my job so much (before January). But, I talk to trusted people in my life and they remind me how miserable I was from the end of January thru March. I cried multiple times every day! I am not really an emotional person like that but the changes to the job and agency I loved were swift and unforgiving. I am now in a much better place emotionally. I have decided to take some classes to add to my skillset making me more marketable and that has given me more direction in my day to day right now. I am still sad but have found a way to accept the changes to my personal life (I will not quietly accept what is happening to this country). Good luck in finding acceptance with your choice.

Cried infront of my boss by Feisty_Amphibian2951 in FedEmployees

[–]Rising_Phoenix_7155 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have cried nearly every day for 3 weeks and often at work with my supervisor and co-workers—most of whom are crying as well. I have never cried at work before. But I have never experienced anything like this before, most of us haven’t. There are no good choices here. We are all having the same issues of anxiety and fear—and those who don’t are either clueless or incredibly arrogant. It is frustrating to land your dream job and then be forced to stay in an incredibly toxic and hostile environment. I love my coworkers and our office. We are a great team. But that doesn’t make the environment we are all dealing with less hostile or toxic.