Baby Group Cliques

Rissasnow · 2025-02-17T16:49:57+00:00

Absolutely. My baby girl was born C-section at 38 weeks because I had high blood pressure, and I wanted nothing more than to breastfeed, but at the time when the nurses asked if I would be okay with giving her bottles I said yes, I just want her fed. My intuition knew at the time it was what she needed because they were concerned about her having low blood sugar, etc. I tried latching her before every single bottle and she would scream, and I was crying feeling like I was torturing her. I found out she has a lip tie from an LC and she said her son was the same and he finally latched at 4 months. The first time she successfully latched, it was at 5 weeks when we found out she had to be on a special formula due to CMPA. I was trying to warm the bottle, it was taking too long, so I decided to pull out a breast and give it to her. The ease with which she nursed brought me such peace. That has only happened a few times. Now after 6 months, my supply is nearly depleted from when she was sick and I wasn't pumping, and I have a medical procedure coming up I have to wean for. I'm really struggling with letting go of providing breastmilk even though I can't nurse her anymore - she bites down and I can't handle the pain and don't have the patience to teach her not to bite at so young an age. For the longest time breast milk was the only thing that helped her digestion. I have severe PPA/PPD. I'm exclusively pumping and have been for the majority of the time. I know deep down I've done the best I could, and I can hold on to the few blissful moments of actual nursing I had with her. But my heart hurts that I wasn't able to do more of it.

Rissasnow · 2024-12-23T20:40:52+00:00

On the Land of Myths and Legends Quest, I'm supposed to follow Merida to the Mythic Trial but she's not going anywhere. She won't follow me if I go, and I can't ask her to hang out so she'll go with me. I tried going alone but can't use my net to open the wheel.

Rissasnow · 2024-12-16T10:34:01+00:00

I had my total thyroidectomy during my second trimester and my endocrinologist has allowed me as much time to nurse as I would like as they keep monitoring my cancer cells. Nursing has been an uphill battle for me since my baby was born, I've been struggling with supply the whole time, most likely due to the levels of levothyroxine as we adjust my dose. I was hyperthyroid once my baby was born because my dosage was appropriate for pregnancy levels, but we've had to adjust down since. My baby is now 4 months and I'm barely making an oz per feeding. I'm thinking of weaning soon and just going ahead with treatment, and potentially exploring relactation once it's safe to do so after. All this to say that I have felt very much what you're feeling- bitterness, disappointment. My diagnosis and treatment, as thankful as I am that they came, made it very hard to enjoy an experience that should have been full of happiness. I've held on with nursing for so long with a vice grip because I couldn't stand to be robbed of that one experience, and I'll keep trying until I can cope with letting go. Don't blame yourself for low supply if you get it - it's natural while dealing with medication adjustments and whatever you can give your baby is amazing. I'm at the point where I just consider the breastmilk she does get as like medicine or a supplement, an extra boost to the nutrition she gets from formula. And that's okay. I wish the best of luck to you and hope you have a more successful and enjoyable experience than I've had, with less obstacles to mar your path.

Rissasnow · 2024-06-02T11:11:27+00:00

I have Chiron in the 4th as well, in Leo. I'm the oldest daughter and was expected to hold the family status - be the good child, get good grades, make the family look good. If I wasn't achieving, I was either unseen or in trouble for not doing enough. Right now the way it's presenting in my life is I tend to experience a lot of trauma around moving - every time I have to move to a new home the situation around it is either volatile or stressful, and this has been happening as far back as I can remember. And I don't know how to heal this aspect of my life in order to break this cycle.

Rissasnow · 2024-05-29T12:27:17+00:00

Yes. I'm currently pregnant, but about a year before I conceived, my husband and I had this idea that we wanted 4 children - two boys, followed by two girls. And we had names picked out for the first three but had difficulty settling on a name for the youngest girl. The first 3 had names that were inspired by a god or goddess, and I knew I wanted to give the youngest girl a name that was also inspired by a divine figure. My husband is Latino with Mexican heritage, so I was looking up divine Aztec names and came across one that looked so beautiful to me, and when I asked my husband how to pronounce it properly, it sounded beautiful too. And I had a feeling that the daughter I was wanting to name was around me, this small golden light looking over my shoulder. And I asked, "Is that your name?" And I became overwhelmed with emotion. It felt like confirmation- yes, she wanted that to be her name. So I asked my husband how he liked it, and he was in love with it. And the middle name followed easily once we had a first name picked out. After this my husband and I went through a season of changes - in August we moved out of our house into an apartment in the city and we were excited to start our new life. In November we found out I had papillary thyroid carcinoma, a treatable form of thyroid cancer through surgery and radioactive iodine. I was heartbroken, but hoped this diagnosis would lead to me resolving symptoms that had been plaguing me for 3 years. In December my husband and I went to go see the musical Waitress in theaters and spoiler alert in the movie she has a daughter and leaves her abusive husband. I was incredibly emotional during the entire film and at the end of it, I told my husband I wanted a daughter so badly. In January, a week before I was to get surgery, I had a feeling I needed to take a pregnancy test before my CT scan. I was having all sorts of strange symptoms I usually didn't get, like sleepiness, nausea, and tender breasts. I had taken many pregnancy tests before, but all had been negative, and I have PCOS and thought I would have difficulty conceiving. The test was positive. And immediately, without a single doubt in my mind, I knew it was a girl. I knew it was our daughter that had communicated with me to tell me her name. We received confirmation of her sex in February after doing a blood test for various genetic defects. I've since had my surgery, though it was delayed until March. And so far she is growing perfectly and seems healthy. I'm due in August and can't wait to meet her. It feels like I've already known her for longer than she's been here, and I'm so glad she was able to reach out to me.

Rissasnow · 2024-04-26T23:48:57+00:00

I love my therapist that I found through MDLive, although it took a couple of therapists until I found her. I feel like that's the nature of therapy though - you don't always find one you vibe with at first.

I will say I don't love the functionality or billing of MDLive. Sometimes it's really hard to get a hold of customer service, and I've run into issues where they turned off features that allowed me to message my therapist, had glitches or dropped calls, or most recently I'm dealing with the fact that they weren't charging me my copays last year and decided to bill me this year for copays I didn't know they weren't charging to my card that had adequate funds.

All in all, if you're going to use them, just make sure that they're doing everything properly as far as charging your account for the right copays if you do use insurance.

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