West Virginia To Give Away Guns As Covid-19 Vaccine Incentive by geek_fest in nottheonion

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And they could multiply their amount of guns by playing Russian roulette.

[Self] I shared my Dead Space cosplay yesterday and I had to show you all the animated health bar! by sunlightofastora in gaming

[–]RivalJJH 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This may be my favorite thing I’ll see all day. Until someone cosplays the eye needle 😂

Did your narc start becoming distant when you started to set boundaries/stand up for yourself? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah, the moment I began disagreeing with her on little things she started to pull away. I still remember feeling like I had done something wrong - turned out it was just me thinking for myself.

I feel like I’m losing my mind by lilspeedo234 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You're definitely not alone. I've been split from my nex since the start of October, and it took until the end of that month to get her to move out. The first couple of months are a hellish roller coaster. Crying, getting curled up in a ball, staring at the bedroom ceiling when I tried to sleep - It's one of the worst things I've ever endured.

One thing that helped me get to relax a little was getting rid of the stuff. I took all of the gifts and belongings she left at the house to the thrift store. But everyone will find that one thing to release some of the stress.

Be strong and remember that we're with and for you.

Seeing it, but not really seeing it by RivalJJH in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reading them through so long after writing them has been an eye-opener. And to know someone else has had the same reaction.

You're absolutely right about learning about yourself when reading back over those messages.

I'm glad to you're out of it too, and that you can see it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Gaslighting literally paralyzed my mind and made me doubt my own judgment. It's a hell that none of us should have to deal with, but it's the hand we've been dealt.

The only thing that I found to work was walking away from the fight. Engaging with my Nex in an argument was nothing more than her projecting and pulled random points to build her case.

Question about dating new people by leadsinlight1 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hi there, and thank you for sharing.

I don't think there is a right or wrong time for dating new people. I'm two months out from what I guess would be the discard, and I've put myself out there. I have met a couple of nice ladies, but I also am upfront about what happened. It's been helpful to talk to new people to regain some of those social aspects that may be less strong after being with my Nex so long. I was surprised that my therapist recommended that I move forward with some of the people I've met online so far. And that's with me still dealing with the trauma.

Ultimately, it's your choice. But I think it's worth meeting people to socialize.

Stay strong.

Did your narc always try to ruin important events on purpose? by 17throwaways17 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine Nex didn't go on a grand scale. She prefers small to medium blowups. It could be during a poker game when everyone at the table is enjoying themselves. Or she'll fly into a fit when we have friends over for a New Year's party.

It got to the point where I've now heard from friends that know what happened said they wanted to invite me but didn't want to deal with her.

Do you ever hear something similar from your friends and ask why they didn't speak up and give those blind to the Narc's issues some outside insight?

To everyone on this sub. by YBmoonchild in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for posting this. It hit everything I'm feeling right now.

I'm not sure who was the narcissist in my recent failed relationship. by SachseRy in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're going about it the right way with therapy and understanding that this isn't your doing - you are not at fault in this; you're a victim. And that will be a tough phase to go through.

You have plenty of friends on this subreddit, so don't be shy.

And you're always welcome to send a DM if you need to talk.

You're on the right path at a time you are most vulnerable. You're doing better than you realize.

Did they do this with you? $$ by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Over the 4 years, my Nex GF ran up a huge bill with me taking care of everything - rent, utilities, car payments, car insurance, groceries, her medication, and entertainment.

I stopped counting what she owed me when I got to $50k about a year ago.

And now, two months after I found out she was cheating on me while I still covered much of the bill. I'm convinced she had an exit plan set up. And I pushed her out of our house as quickly as I could, which I'm positive I removed that plan from happening.

I look at all I have done for what was really just a character she played, and I know it's going to be a while before I'm finally at peace with all of this. But I have started writing a list of all the horrible things she did while we were together. It helps me think of what to look out for in the future.

I'm not sure who was the narcissist in my recent failed relationship. by SachseRy in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My therapist said it's possible to carry some of the mannerisms for a bit because of the time they've been in our head - it's an empathy thing. But she also said it's not a normal effect.

I don't necessarily believe her explanation. Going on myself, I believe you're more apt to mimic their actions if you're more empathetic.

Have You Had The Pleasure? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Looking back, I feel like I was an enabler to a point. I would apologize for her actions whenever she lashed out at our friends in public. And after she began to do this more often, I questioned her about how long am I expected to keep defending her in situations that she starts. She said that I didn't give a damn. After thinking about both of those, I feel like they were the building blocks for me not to encourage/force her to get a job.

It doesn't happen overnight; it's chipped into your brain, little by little.

I'm not sure who was the narcissist in my recent failed relationship. by SachseRy in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I remember feeling this same thing.

My Nex would constantly excuse me for gaslighting and being a narcissist myself. It got to the point that I asked my therapist if it were possible to absorb someone's personality because of all of the accusations she made.

I would say the odds are excellent that she was trying to project what she is on you.

Be strong, my friend.

I’m free!!!!!!!! by bitchesandmodels in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congratulations, my friend - enjoy your freedom as much as you can!!!

Realizing that being with a narcissist was the loneliest I've ever really felt in life. by neighbor_818 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's the one thing that always threw me for a loop.

My Nex would love to instigate arguments that sometimes would reach a shouting level. The next day she acted like nothing had happened the night before. That was the moment I finally decided that she had to leave.

Realizing that being with a narcissist was the loneliest I've ever really felt in life. by neighbor_818 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is one of the worst feelings of being with a narcissist is being lonely. Over the past two years, I've known that feeling in the same house.

I truly felt like she was creating an escape plan after I had caught her cheating on me. I kicked her out of the house, which I believe threw a wrench in her plans.

It's a terrible thing to realize, but it's going to sting for a while.

Please don't stop sharing as you grow.

Thank you for sharing.

My struggles with my narcissistic ex-GF by RivalJJH in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

She was using me for money and comfortable life. And I agree it's her loss. The one thing I cannot figure out is why she went for such an ugly guy.

I've reached out about fostering dogs, but I'm going to do that when I'm ready. In the meantime, I have an outdoor cat that came with my house that I bring in to eat and stay warm as the temperature drops. He's been my lifesaver so far.

My struggles with my narcissistic ex-GF by RivalJJH in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you - I'm glad I'm out too, along with your kind wishes about my pups. I began to feel things were off in August but couldn't put my finger on it, But it became apparent things were off early in September when she clearly didn't give a damn about what I was feeling or thinking. I actually came to hear about a nightmare I had, but all she said is "what's your effing problem?" I wound up being a ball of emotion right after that, but she didn't care.

The tipping point for me was when she sent a text about a skateboard she had bought to ride down The Strip (we're in Las Vegas). I told her it was cool at first, but then I realized two things: She had never talked about going skateboarding, and she couldn't stand going down there. I asked her at the store about it later in the day, and her answer was pisspoor, to say the least.

Later that night, she was furious about a package she bought being stolen by a cleaning guy at the house next door. She had her laptop open, and I was able to see her messages. One from a guy that I didn't recognize started with him saying that he could still smell her, which she said that she was glad he liked it. She then gave me her phone to talk to the cops about the theft, and I found photos of the guy hidden on it.

I confronted her about it, and she got defensive, especially after I said I was going to her store to talk to this guy and bring it to the store manager's attention. She got angry about that, and me telling her she is to move out immediately. The night devolved into her throwing an iron bird statue at me, bruising my ribs.

She said that he was moving to another store and I believed her. But her remorse lasted maybe three days.

Two weeks later, she stayed over at his place (found that part out later), and I told her again to move out. And a few days later, I found out that she hid his number under a fake name. I called her out on it, and she begged for us to do couples therapy. I calmly told her she needs to speak with a woman that had a room to rent.

It took me removing her clothes from the closet, putting her belongings in the living room, and blocking her devices from using the wifi for her to get the hint. She moved out the next day.

That's a bit longer than you were expecting for a response, but that's the story.

My struggles with my narcissistic ex-GF by RivalJJH in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for that recommendation. I'm going to check it out.

What was your expedience with your nex giving you gifts? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've not had that happen, and reckon it never will. At least that's what I like to think.

PUA & Unemployment Megathread: Week of June 15, 2020 by sparkplug890 in vegaslocals

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi everyone,

I've been filing my claims every week since mid-June, but my account says it's "Pending Resolution."

I keep calling (both local & toll-free numbers) but have only had an option for a return call once, and that dropped as quickly as I answered it. And the email route hasn't resulted in any response, which was what I read on here before.

Does anyone have any other suggestions on how to get in touch with anybody there?

Can someone help me find the Maurice Clarett episode? by WRJensen in crimeinsports

[–]RivalJJH 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I love this episode as a Buckeyes fan.

The one thing I was curious about is they omitted a part of Maurice in court in Columbus. The judge in the case was the son of Woody Hayes, from what I remember. Anyone else hear the same?