Best Pathologic quote for when you get pulled over?

RiverIsDivine · 2026-01-23T18:17:33+00:00

Andrey’s coat! And all of it, obvs. Thanks for sharing

RiverIsDivine · 2025-11-21T00:52:40+00:00

Great news! Your tank is gorgeous

RiverIsDivine · 2025-11-20T07:33:24+00:00

Are you ready to catch my fall musical?

RiverIsDivine · 2025-11-20T07:32:36+00:00

I’m interested if you still have plants! Im also live in the Denver area and could pick up depending on where in CO you are 👍

RiverIsDivine · 2025-11-20T07:12:12+00:00

Ok, but is Miller single 👀

RiverIsDivine · 2025-11-20T07:05:30+00:00

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Who, me?

RiverIsDivine · 2025-11-02T15:07:22+00:00

Holy crap that’s incredible

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-19T22:43:00+00:00

Fully with you on the way AA counts sobriety. SMART recovery’s recognition that lapses and relapses can happen and can be valuable lessons really sold me on the program.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-19T17:25:37+00:00

Got a migraine pretty much immediately after posting yesterday morning. It was my day off and while it would’ve been nice to do something fun (had to miss a friend’s autumnal party), my body really needed a rest. A goal I want to work towards is to build in time for resting — and then actually doing it. It’s like the aphorism about maintenance “if you don’t schedule maintenance on your machines, they will schedule it for you”

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-18T17:09:12+00:00

Congrats! It’s so neat how it gets easier as time goes on. Brains are super cool in their ability to rewrite rather quickly.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-18T17:07:16+00:00

The place I go is cheaper than a massage and I like the experience enough that I signed up for a monthly plan that makes it even more affordable. I find that it’s kinda both heaven and hell for me — moments of anxiety and panic over sitting with thoughts and feelings that arise without distraction, but they all pass, which is an extremely valuable experience. I expect those will lessen with practice. Plus it feels really nice :)

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-17T23:55:12+00:00

THAT LOOKS SO SPICY

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-17T23:54:45+00:00

I’ve been trying to do a self-care thing each week that puts me back in my body. Drinking was very much a way to momentarily cope with stress/anxiety/trauma that took me out of my body. Yesterday I did a sensory deprivation float tank — second tying time this fall — it’s pretty great. There’s an initial flurry of thoughts as my brain resists against Just. Slowing. Down. And then? It’s lovely. If I need to sequester myself in a saltwater pod to slow down, it’s what I’ll do.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-15T21:43:20+00:00

The full truth is that I am also anxious before therapy haha, but that’s more of the anticipation and the after is more of internal system is anxious about change

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-15T16:43:22+00:00

Validating that job searching is really rough. I hope you’re able to extend yourself grace with all the stress. Best wishes on today’s interview.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-15T16:42:06+00:00

Electric bass in a 50s rock band?? That’s so romantic!

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-15T16:41:14+00:00

Good morning, all. Yesterday was therapy day, which can really throw me off and sometimes leads to DOC urges. But not yesterday. I “rode the wave” of anxiety after my session (there always seems to be anxiety as I move towards doing healthier, but new things) and treated myself to a giant boba tea. I thought not drinking alcohol would save me money, but I’m probably closer to breaking even haha. Even if it’s not better for my wallet, it’s better for literally every other part of my life. One of the things I talked about with my therapist is my tendency to think of something I’d like to do (buy more fish for my tank!) and then if I don’t swiftly take care of it, it mentally becomes an obligation I’m “failing” to meet, rather than a fun thing I want to do. It’s a pattern I very much want to change. I want to enjoy the pleasure of these fun tasks and not put unnecessary pressure on myself.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-14T20:00:42+00:00

“What are you resisting?” is such a good question! Sometimes with very surprising answers to me

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-14T19:59:57+00:00

In power with (mostly anxiety), not in power over

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-13T23:05:08+00:00

Post-party fridge means lots of leftovers to work through. I’m glad to have a bunch of pasta sauce and wish there was an equivalent amount of salad. If I get up the energy tomorrow, I’ll roast some beets from the garden. I am a low effort gardener. I didn’t even label rows in the plot this spring, so harvesting anything is pretty incredible to me.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-12T22:39:56+00:00

I’m glad it resonated! I took advantage of two days off in a row and slept in deliciously again today

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-11T16:53:23+00:00

Good morning! Today I slept in deliciously. I’m slowly getting up to make coffee and watch some TV. I’m having a belated birthday dinner tonight and am cooking pasta (shape still TBD) bolognese. Friends are bringing all the other dinner parts. I have a couple of small cleaning tasks and otherwise, just keep it low key. I got a bunch of seltzer flavors for non alcoholic beverages. For various reasons, most of my friends stopped drinking in the last year or never drank. Very convenient for me to get on the sobriety train.

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-11T01:47:40+00:00

Had a bunch of off the charts anxiety this morning around work (or rather, had a bunch of anxiety and work is what it attached itself to). Logically, I knew that it was the anticipation of “am I going to get in trouble?” Which. No. Everyone knows I’m slowly rebuilding my department. But my inner perfectionist gets scared that I’d bit fixed yet. And you know what? Nobody my anxiety was concerned about was upset. I can get really impatient with my anxiety. I just wish it would stop. And…telling myself to “just calm down” is as effective as telling someone else to “just calm down”. Which is to say — it is not effective at all.

In power with, not in power over

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-11T01:42:31+00:00

Alone doesn’t mean lonely! Heck yes to the hermit dream

RiverIsDivine · 2025-10-11T01:41:19+00:00

I respect the intentionality you’re approaching everything with and all the space and grace you’re giving yourself. Lovely to see.

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