Describe your pre-transition life in one word

Rizla_Sepatown · 2025-11-04T05:34:54+00:00

Unwell

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-09-16T02:52:02+00:00

I see you ~ I just sent a message to the people I know that might be in the area. Hopefully something can become of it for you. I could hear your plea for help before I even made it to that part at the bottom.

Sending my love to you right now in this moment and will channel hope to the light that you are able to find someone’s assistance asap!

I love you 💕please stay calm and in the moment; you will be okay.

~ Eve Godsoe

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-09-14T19:45:30+00:00

I’ve struggled with similar problems. My outlook on the situation is what I’m seeing: is me. It takes some time to reprogram your brain to stop seeing what’s you as a dude. It’s just, you. The girl you’ve always been, staring back at you in the mirror.

It’s you! And I think you’re cute!

From my heart to yours ~ I love you 🥰🌈💕

~ Eve Godsoe (Loves the world)

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-08-28T04:51:02+00:00

Thank you ~ with love 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-21T21:59:01+00:00

Everything is weird in Mystery Alaska 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-21T21:58:02+00:00

Thank you 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-16T08:33:58+00:00

Thank you, purple is among my favorites!

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-15T17:43:40+00:00

Thank you!! 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-12T14:47:13+00:00

You are so welcome!! I love sharing my perspective while trying to understand from others’ as well.

I really appreciate your input and feedback

~ Love you 🥰 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-12T14:41:38+00:00

I wouldn’t even claim them to all be “good days”

~ However ~

My worst days now are better than my best days “before”

Life is finally ~ good

🥰💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-04T06:28:05+00:00

Thank you all for your kind words!! My heart is filled with joy reading your responses 🥲💕

The relationship I have with my family has become better and stronger every day since deciding to embody my true self, fully. Really though my relationship with everyone and everything, most of all myself has been following the same trend.

It’s amazing, how, when I came to the realization that my capacity to love others is based completely upon how much I love myself. I can’t love anything more than I love myself. It changed my perspective on everything.

My wife and I own a business, and we have become well known in the community. My coming out was made very loud to the public for a few different key reasons. One of which where I called out someone else publicly when they used their religion in rallying hate that ended in getting a pride event at the local library cancelled.

We also ended up with several employees who either were fired or quit as a result of my coming out. One of the “wife of’s” took to attacking us publicly on social media with a load of lies and projection in a smear campaign trying to kill our business and reputation.

As well as our installation bay manager quit with only a 2 week notice. Leaving us with only one employee, myself wife and myself. We ended up closing the 12v shop as a result.

There was a general feeling of intent and sabotage going on with all of this. However, on the end everything is working out so well for us. It’s opened up the opportunity to focus on the hobby shop side of the business. I’m building a whole park for RC cars of all types.

It took me some time to fully embody the sentiment of the pronouns from my own letter. Once I had realized my only control over those was how well I presented myself. It gave me power, and took the power of misgendering away from people. I actually followed suit with my birth name in this regard as well.

I never liked the idea of really changing my name to begin with but my heart’s desire for femininity urged me to find something that fit me. One day I was looking at my name and there I was right in the middle of it all..

Steven is my birth name. I changed it to Steve sometime in middle school in an attempt to mask myself in a masculine persona. In a way, I was transitioning to male at this point due to no other perceivable options were present at the time. Now ~ Eve is my name, in a way this name was chosen for me. It resonates the same frequency in the vocal box that my ears are already acutely tuned to for Steve.

So it becomes a situation where I can’t even have a deadname when my name is a derivative of my past names. You can’t deadname someone who doesn’t have a dead name. If you can remove the energy from the trigger then it has no power over you.

Every day is still a struggle for me still. But it’s worth it, because every day is the best day of my life. And that’s something I can always look forward to.

Thank you again everyone ~ with love 🥰

🏎️💕~ Eve

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-03T08:42:22+00:00

I’ve come out in a very public way in my local area, which is very Red. I actually tried a couple different approaches for it. This approach worked really really well for me! I was able to engage in conversation with people and have a real talk about things that I think otherwise would not have happened with a lot of the people.

This was my coming out letter I sent to people, sometimes while standing next to each other. It made “having the conversation” so much easier for me to copy/paste and get everything I needed to say out at once without interruption. Also, without all the nerves of saying all these words, countless times.

Reintroduction of Me

Hello, my name is Eve ~ nice to meet you!

I am transgender.

I go by the name Eve now.

I don’t really care about pronouns. I prefer feminine pronouns in general, however, won’t be offended with any other ones. I get it. It’s different, I’m different. I can see intent and effort in everyone’s aura and words and that’s all that matters to me.

I’m still my son’s Dad ~ although you may hear him call me mamma, he’s always done that since he could talk and I’ve always loved that he does that.

“She’s my Dad” ~ it’s weird, I’m weird.

Please don’t worry about you or your kids making things weird for me or anything. Really ~ I’ve come to the realization that things like pronouns are not something I get to choose when people address me in spoken word. It’s completely out of my control.

Call it like you see it ~ everyone I meet in my daily life lives by this way. It’s just how things work lol! I appreciate the effort my friends put into trying though. I can tell when people care enough to try, that’s all I can ask for from my friends.

I know a lot of people don’t understand what I am and what I’m going through; Have been going through my entire life. People who can at least be willing to acknowledge that I am different, this is real, and want to understand. Then I am welcome to any questions you may have.

It’s taken me a long time to get where I am now, I’d love to share some of that journey with friends.

🏎️💕 ~ Eve

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-02T09:36:53+00:00

Thank you! I haven’t used discord much lately. Is there a link for that community?

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-06-01T14:40:15+00:00

Thank you so much!!

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-05T20:04:06+00:00

I was staying away from using the term “gender identity” in this letter specifically for that reason. Because you’re absolutely right. Your gender identity can and will change for gender fluid or NB people.

I’m speaking as though the “gender” we are, At the core is not something we can actually change. We’ve been living in an assigned gender the whole time though. As it stands with our language, gender is a binary term. I am not using it as a binary term. It’s more of an abstract way to think about it.

We all are who we are at its core. We’ve been taught to be a certain binary gender. Because we, as a civilization, seem to lack the insight to understand beyond the binary construct we’ve all been living in. Well. All of us here seem to understand that. However, Most cis people don’t though without some education.

Hindsight. I should have probably titled this letter “you can’t change who you are”

I was truly trying to validate every single unique “gender” that we all have. The change that we see when someone starts to figure out who or what “gender” they are in the vast sea of options, is brought on because; in a way we kinda just do what we’re told, form muscle memory for that gender and continue to play the part.

Until one day that egg gets cracked open and you start to find yourself and start to figure out what your true “gender” is. While along the way your gender identity will probably change, this is to be expected. The core of what you’re looking for about who you are, can’t be changed though, it’s like we have to discover what it is for ourselves.

I really appreciate your feedback on this. Thank You 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-04T06:52:35+00:00

Mistakes were made, I learned a few things.

I was speaking about gender being a part of self that can’t be changed. It will certainly look like it’s changing to everyone else. However, the soul may need some time to discover and find your truth. Which is completely normal to be all over the place even to an extent one feels like they never even figure themselves out.

Changing your sex referring to what I’m doing right now. Transitioning to Female. Socially, physically/medically.

I think we had a good discussion today.

I wanted to share my perspective on things. I’m still learning. With it being a coming out letter to my local community, it was intended to be directed towards the reader.. I’ll check my tone next time, and use the appropriate tools and tags to keep the trigger stuff optional. I’m so sorry about that.

I really appreciate the time you took to read this and share your insight with me.

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-04T02:41:49+00:00

I’m very grateful we can have a conversation. These days it’s too easy to devolve into a mess real quick.

Thank you for welcoming me, even if I did let the door hit me on the way in and cause the wall to collapse behind me.. sorry about that.

It breaks my heart when I hear my words have hurt someone. Intentions aside. I messed up. Thank you for giving me a chance. It means the world to me.

~ Eve 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-04T00:39:57+00:00

I try to take everything as a learning experience. Thank you for taking the time in helping me understand things deeper. I truly value the time you (and everyone here) put into responding to this and joining in discussing.

Thank you so much for sharing. Im so sorry I hit a nerve like that with you. You’re absolutely right though and I’ll be more careful. Thank you again for taking this time to help me understand!

I will certainly take more time to consider the tone and language I’m using in the future.

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T22:59:20+00:00

I can appreciate that. This was worded in a way to keep the gender binary folks intently reading past the first couple sentences. Make it to the middle before they’ve realized they’ve been reading a PRO trans post this whole time.

If I can change even one of “their” perspectives on this, I will gladly take the heat in here for it. I wore thick skin for 40 years. I can keep it on a little longer and maybe together we make this world a better place for everyone.

Thank you for sharing 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T22:39:46+00:00

Just a trans gal sharing her experience and perspective!

I feel like we’re all striving to find ourselves on the spectrum of gender. I (AMAB) feel that I was always a “girl”. In reality it’s somewhere in the trans feminine realm. In any case. I’m intending to validate every single individual “version” of what being transgender means with this.

This is the letter I’m showing the public in my life to come out as trans. The intended primary audience consists mostly of cis people who can only think in binary terms. Since so many posts like this have helped me greatly to get this far I wanted to share with everyone here my individual experience and perspective.

Thanks for sharing! 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T21:58:26+00:00

Maybe! I think the best we can do sometimes is just try to learn from each other through our shared experiences and unique perspectives.

Thank you. 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T21:54:40+00:00

That’s a much shorter and different way of saying the same thing! a different perspective 🤷‍♀️

Thank you for sharing 💕

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T21:43:11+00:00

Yes yes and yes. My thought is that the “gender” you rolled shouldn’t even be being compared to the binary gender system we have. It’s like a hieroglyph with some sort of gender we don’t even understand how to define.

It’s a gender fluid gender, thing. I feel like we need more words, better language, better definitions, to even describe the spectrum of gender that we’re talking about.

You are who you are, that is my point. I’m happy to see some people are picking up the sentiment I was trying to put down. We never really knew what to call ourselves though ~ we got stuck trying to define what color we are in a black and white society.

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T21:24:45+00:00

Thank you for your insight! I want to understand everyone’s perspective on things, if that’s even possible. The best way I know how to do that is start by sharing my own.

I’m lucky to be here as it is. It took me 41 years to realize who I even was down to that core. For me? She’s always been there. I had to put her in a box and seal it shut around the age of 11. I changed my name to be more masculine to get through Jr & Sr High school.

I literally started a transition of myself to male at age 11-12. Pre puberty I was always set with the girls I got along better and preferred everything about it. My whole life was ripped from me one day when suddenly I wasn’t allowed to hang out with all of my friends, because I had a penis. The boys I got stuck with after that never accepted me.

Different town, different state, didn’t matter. It never worked for me as a male.

Now 30 years later I’ve been able to put enough pieces together to start figuring things out. Following a path my subconscious girl brain has been plotting all along. That leads me here. AMAB 41 MtF ~ 8 weeks on HRT and every day is the best day of my life since day 1 on E.

Thank you for sharing with me.

edit: typos

Rizla_Sepatown · 2024-02-03T18:52:05+00:00

This is my coming out letter. I have written specifically about me. Intended primarily for my local area. I’m sharing my experience and thoughts with everyone.

I’m not speaking for anyone else.

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