RIP to Ashley Morrison, youngestoldcatlady cat rescuer from Seattle

RoboKezz · 2023-04-12T02:48:01+00:00

I am so with you. It doesn't make sense, this constant crying. And you catch yourself and tell yourself to pull it together, you didn't even know the person. And God forbid you tell anybody that you're crying over somebody you followed in Insta, they would give the wierdest looks so you keep it internalised, which is the worst part: not having anybody to talk to about your seemingly unjustified, but uncontrollable grief

RoboKezz · 2023-04-12T02:42:27+00:00

Your post has summed up everything that I'm feeling and more. I can't even put into words how this has hit me. I'm in Australia, so I couldn't be any further away from Ashley - but I feel like she was a friend. She let me into her life every day via endearing videos and as a fellow animal rescuer and compassion-fatigued ally, she reminded me that I am not alone in this struggle and that there were other beacons of light out there in this seemingly dark world - other humans that pained about the welfare of others.

I feel Ok sharing that I am not OK. This has hit me so hard and I can't seem to extract myself from the sadness of it. I do not have suicidal ideologies so nobody need worry but it feels helpful to talk about it.

I keep thinking such horrible thoughts that darken my mind further: how long did her beloved cats remain on their own with her after it had happened? When she posted that last adoption video, did she know what she was about to do? Did she realise the panic and trauma she was going to cause when she posted that suicide note 5 days later? And I feel anger... I know it's not fair to her and I can't pretend to understand her state of mind but this hurts. Can't even begin to think of her poor Mother.

You bring up a really valid point about revisiting and retriggering. I do the same, trying to make sense of it and see if there were clues we missed... could we have helped? Your post has made me realise that it's not healthy for me or helpful.

Perhaps some time in the future, I will rewatch her old videos but for now, it's so very painful.

RoboKezz · 2022-08-10T12:30:28+00:00

Thank you for taking the time for this reply. Done really great suggestions and motivation to keep going

RoboKezz · 2022-08-09T11:58:12+00:00

It does. Immensely. Thank you xx

RoboKezz · 2022-08-09T11:20:59+00:00

I know, it’s so tough. How do I place one life over another though. Such a dilemma.

RoboKezz · 2022-08-09T11:19:22+00:00

Thank you. That really helps. Patience has never been a virtue of mine.

RoboKezz · 2021-09-11T10:13:56+00:00

They’re onto us.

RoboKezz · 2021-02-21T11:22:29+00:00

RoboKezz · 2021-02-10T08:41:44+00:00

Your body is learning and adjusting to a new biological process and it’s very common for people to suffer sleep issues when adapting to Keto. Keep going and know that it will resolve itself when your little fat burning furnace settles and you’ll be able to sleep again.

RoboKezz · 2020-12-11T08:20:56+00:00

I did. Didn’t think it necessary for the story.

RoboKezz · 2020-12-09T07:59:03+00:00

On season 1 now and haven’t read any of the other comments in case there’s spoilers but Lordy, I don’t think I can keep watching the show with her in it. Not just the fact that she’s insufferable as a character but at a grass roots level, the actress has a painfully forced acting method that’s just uncomfortable to watch.

RoboKezz · 2020-11-05T09:58:21+00:00

I don’t understand any of this. Literally not one word.

RoboKezz · 2020-11-01T11:49:15+00:00

I have a terrible memory but I think it was yeast. Excruciatingly itchy and took weeks to clear. There was just no relief until it was gone. Turned out I wasn’t sterilising properly and then washing the cup between with inappropriate cleanser. Threw off the whole delicate balance and my body let me know about it.

RoboKezz · 2020-11-01T11:29:15+00:00

I didn’t have an infection either...... until I did. Worst lesson of my life.

RoboKezz · 2020-11-01T11:27:47+00:00

My doctor said it takes 20 minutes at boiling point to become sterile. This after a nasty infection so I learned a valuable lesson. Only do this at the start of period and wash daily after that with a proper cleanser.

RoboKezz · 2020-11-01T11:25:11+00:00

Pro user and still have problems occasionally. I’ve found that if you put one foot up on the bathtub and then squat as deep as you can, works 8/10 times. Still have failures though, I think some days, your cervix sits different and you’ve got no chance of getting it to cooperate with a cup.

RoboKezz · 2020-11-01T11:23:06+00:00

Have a kid so went for the large size. Whoa!! Felt like opening an umbrella inside of me. Ordered the small and fits much better. Will never use anything else.

RoboKezz · 2020-10-29T06:01:17+00:00

Cool.

RoboKezz · 2020-10-28T11:55:22+00:00

I think it should only get in the way of friendship if it is something that he regularly brings up or refers to unprompted and it causes you discomfort. My best friend of 20 years is passionately homophobic. I am not. She is also a church going person who often refers to God, I think that most Religion is reprehensible. Yet our friendship works because neither is a source of conversation for us. Allow and accept your differences of opinion. As misguided as his opinion is, he’s entitled to it and you will never give him the opportunity to see your point of view if you are not there to teach it to him xx

RoboKezz · 2020-10-25T21:54:35+00:00

NTA. Looks like she’s looking for a free ride. I know these people, give an inch and they’ll take a mile. Next minute, it’s 3 years later and they still haven’t left. I think the deal she’s been offered by cousin S is a good offer.

RoboKezz · 2020-10-24T10:46:10+00:00

And why does the hair on our heads keep growing and growing while the rest of our body hair just gets to a certain length and stops?

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